hey there!! ^_^

lagomorpheus · #1 16-09-2023, 06:42 AM

hi!!
you can call me helena!!
but i’m very happy to be here and have found this forum ◡̈

i’ve been on my little spiritual journey since i was a preteen. i’ve been into wicca, paganism, demonolatry, and a whole lot more before i got to my current point. i think i’ve carried a lot of the ritual and practices with me as i’ve developed into my own. ◡̈ <3 i’m still really into meditation, spirit/spirit work, ancestral work, cleansing… whatever else…

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during lockdown in my city, i was about 17 when i had a powerful (2 me at least lol) dream!! i was in the desert, a lot like the one i already live in, but there was no city. it was a small village and i lived with my family. everybody there had the same religion and we revered the 4 kings. they all were represented by stones in the shape of pyramids. i forget their names, but there was a green one, a purple one, a black one, and a yellow one. the houses we lived in were made of mud and straw, but their temple was huuuge and gorgeous. it was made of marble inside and out.

but i remember in the dream, i went into the temple with my family, and i looked at the four pyramids in their formation and they sat in a display like in a museum. there was a gold label and it was in a big glass box, but i totally freaked out!! and i ran outside and i ran and i ran way into the desert!! the dunes became as high as and skinny skyscrapers!! and the sky turned to black, but the sun was still out. the dirt and the sand and the rocks all became red. and i looked up at the sun and i cried. i fell to my knees and i sobbed horrifically. and i felt what i think was the presence of God. i teared up a little bit typing the whole thing lololol
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i’m not describing it as epically as i experienced it, but i keep coming back to it even 3 years later. i go on and off between “this was important!” and “dreams are dreams… silly and weird… it’s brain TV. not important.” but for the past 8 months or so i’ve been really wanting to understand it and connect with God. i’ve found a lot of solace in the old testament. i’ve been learning a lot and i’ve been able to apply it to my daily life. ◡̈

umm 💭 im not sure what else i have to say about myself… but im more than happy to answer questions!! once my account is a bit older + more experienced, i’ll make sure to edit all my profile stuff…

until then, i’ll be scrolling around. see ya! <3