Running Again

I see I have lost strength and spirituality within myself over the years. I understand the loss of strength after being connected with my twin flame because something inside of me wanted to join with him, but how do you lose spirituality with a spiritual connection? Or was that gone before we were brought together? He just brough me to terms with seeing that I had lost that part of me somewhere? He told me too when we first re-met. That I was different. Still the person he loved, but I didn't love humanity like I once did. That I was judgmental towards others. I don't hate. I love, but I have become very hardened after years of searching for a connection to replicate what we have. I know now why I never found it. But I don't know WHERE I lost my faith and spirituality?

P.S. I am just rambling maybe for some incite somewhere but more for myself so that someday I can look back and answer all the questions I have right now. This thread is kind of my journal for the time being. Thanks for reading and helping me where you can!!! It is much appreciated.