I Need A Hand, The Structure of Getting Back in the Game

[Skinniage]

Ello Ello, new to this whole forum stuff.
I've got a few questions, more than a few but doing my best to figure them out myself the best i can first. When i get stuck i'll be sure come ere, which is why im ere. Hopefully i'll be able to share some knowlege when i gain a bit more

Bit of a background. You dont have to read but it might be useful for my question.

I first became interested in meditation, metaphysics and all that juice about 5 years ago, just as i turned 17. Its fair to say i've had my struggles with keeping on top of all of it over the years. The same months that i stumbled on this area of life, i discovered a quicker alternative to playing with my conciousness, using drugs. Around this time i was playing with attempting astral projection, lucid dreaming, achieving a hightened state of awareness and various meditations, i found myself in a slight state of enlightenment, i felt like i knew maybe more than i should have at that age, which brought on what i've heard is called the dark night of the sole, or something like that. I found myself in a state of obsessively altering my mind, i quit the spiritual path and replaced it whatever drug came my way, leading me down a bit of an iffy path including a nice dose of addiction to a number of different chemicals and thought patterns. As drugs became more prominent in life i found it was a great way to feel semi-normal around the people i hung out with, felt like i would be missing out the fun of being a top nutter if i focused on my spiritual path rather than going out with my mates, playing my gigs (i'll never quit gigs) and getting decently out of my mind, which to be honest i don't regret, i did have fun but it left me with a lot of problems, depersonalisation and depression. I forgot why i chose to have the experience of life in the 3rd dimension. I have learned a lot from this part of my life and now i have decided it's time to get back on track, i have said and attempted this a good few times but now the time is right, and i have to let that part of my life go. It's funny because nearly every drug induced experience i've had, i've always come to the conclusion that i need to quit destroying my brain body and soul, and focus on my spirituality, ignored it for a solid 4 years. The niggling has brough me to surrender to my true path and face myself like a true punk nutter would. In terms of turning this around, i've discovered my fear of not following through with this, which has been at least a bit of a factor in me relapsing a few times. I'm replacing the fear with confidence that i will, the fear always seems to set me back.

Now questions innit.

I've meditated every day for around 3-4 months, the first month or two purely working on calming down the monkey mind & altering my perspectives.

Now maybe the last month and a half i have been working towards developing my 3rd eye and astral projection.
For the 3rd eye im using the Trataka method and another one, not sure what its called. I am achieving more and more results each day. I'm not sure if any of you have heard of Ryan Cropper (you better had, he's sound) but im using his 10 step course on AP.
Im looking for advice on the structure of what im doing. I have so many things that i want to focus on that i dont know where to start.

My main objective at the moment is to achieve astral projection from a medative state, i feel i can learn the most out of this practice, but im struggling a little on how to go about it (i have only achived very minor OBE's acidentally in the past 5 years).

Do i mainly focus on this, and add a sprinkle of 3rd eye med, i attempt to lucid dream most nights as it is (still yet to achieve this time around) and try to contantly be at full awareness.

ORRRRR

Do i focus mainly on things like the 3rd eye med, chackras, lucid dreaming shadow intergration and general awareness first and build my way up. (Im fully aware of the stuff i could encounter in low vibrational states during AP, but i feel im quite happy so im not worried about that, i am prepaired though)

Not to say im only using these to experience the AP, I like em all but AP is my biggest intention at the moment.

Also, does using drugs in the past slow down your capability to learn these things, i doubt i have brain damiage from it, but there is a good bit of soul repairal that need to take place. I can specify which drugs if necicairy.

Any tips, experience or whatever u might think i am open. Also any different techniques i should have a look into for any of the above, let me know!

[one-light]

Welcome here Skinniage I just quickly read some of your message - I'd just like to mention about drugs in the past effecting your brain, don't even think about that it could at all - you are where you are now, get stronger - I specialise in self healing so I don't like people doing any kind of drugs - doesn't work with any spiritual issues, not in a good way. if its medication not keen on that either if they are strong ones, but you have to follow docs instructions and ease of gently with their approval - use natural remedies and the power of your mind 'research it' to get stronger...

hi all I know is something called psychosis caused by drugs, I have seen this with someone. I was not surprised when I read you have suffered through depression. I hope you have stopped taking any and don't return to it and will heal more and more each day. Other than that I am not the one to give advice, but I wish you all the best with this :)

[Skinniage]

Originally Posted by one-light

Welcome here Skinniage I just quickly read some of your message - I'd just like to mention about drugs in the past effecting your brain, don't even think about that it could at all - you are where you are now, get stronger - I specialise in self healing so I don't like people doing any kind of drugs - doesn't work with any spiritual issues, not in a good way. if its medication not keen on that either if they are strong ones, but you have to follow docs instructions and ease of gently with their approval - use natural remedies and the power of your mind 'research it' to get stronger...

That's exactly the plan, they had a grip over me for years. Im not on any medication and i'm doing pretty strong in terms of knocking everything on the head, including addictions to things other than substances.
Do you happen to know any meditations that are specific to helping with addictive trates? I know shadow intergration is one of the key elements.

Cheers for your support!

[Skinniage]

Originally Posted by asearcher

hi all I know is something called psychosis caused by drugs, I have seen this with someone. I was not surprised when I read you have suffered through depression. I hope you have stopped taking any and don't return to it and will heal more and more each day. Other than that I am not the one to give advice, but I wish you all the best with this :)

Yes i'm familiar with the psychosis, funnily enough mainly caused by one of the softer drugs which was cannabis, also have experienced it on a couple of others. Luckily it's not lasted and that was also a large part to my descision to stop. I am clean off everything and thats the way i want to keep it! Besides plant medicines further down the road.
Cheers man

Originally Posted by Skinniage

Yes i'm familiar with the psychosis, funnily enough mainly caused by one of the softer drugs which was cannabis, also have experienced it on a couple of others. Luckily it's not lasted and that was also a large part to my descision to stop. I am clean off everything and thats the way i want to keep it! Besides plant medicines further down the road.
Cheers man

That is really strong of you to have beaten this drug-business.

[WildHairedWoman]

Hello Skinniage,

I can only give you advice about the way I learned astral projection. Once I realized I could travel without my body, I set goals, places or people I wanted to visit. I was a kid at the time but I wanted confirmation so I contacted my cousin and set up a date and time that I would "visit" her and then after the visit wrote a letter describing everything I saw going on at her house. I think it is important to get confirmation because we all have really good imaginations.

[one-light]

Originally Posted by Skinniage

That's exactly the plan, they had a grip over me for years. Im not on any medication and i'm doing pretty strong in terms of knocking everything on the head, including addictions to things other than substances.
Do you happen to know any meditations that are specific to helping with addictive trates? I know shadow intergration is one of the key elements.

Cheers for your support!

You sound very positive with your replies Skinniage - I like the positive vibes coming off your messages - I'm not going to advise what medication is best, my target with people I help is zero medication and drugs. Take your time with recovery you're well on the way - others here will advise on meds good and bad, target is zero but you should take time as you need it, to get there.

Keep getting stronger, power of the mind - spend a little time daily checking it out online, and self healing energy, it will help make you stronger so you can help others, that day will come...