Meeting a fairy

[Ordnael]

Given the current state of affairs, I assume they were palestinians, maybe nurses in a hospital hallway, about 12 people, 11 men and at least one boy, about 10 years old.

They were kneeling in prayer, with their eyes closed, backs against the walls, side by side. Half of them standing in front of the other half, so there were 6 people praying in front of each other.

The place looked clean, tidy, and there was light. I came from the corridor around the corner and watched them. The boy who was the first in his row perceived me, though I was invisible. He turned his head, opened his eyes and smiled at me. I was crying, I felt sorry abut what is going on, I waved to him, but he just smiled, like seeing me was the reason why he was praying.

Then he closed his eyes and continued praying there with the others, no one else saw me. I vanished after that and woke up.

I don't know how I appeared to him, hopefully not like a crying man, that vision couldn't make someone happy. Maybe I gave him hope, but I was crying because I couldn't assure him that things would be alright.

The divinity doesn't side with people or groups, it sides with principles. If among 1.000 people there's only one righteous, the divinity is with that person. But when wickedness abounds, the divinity is hindered, because it acts through the righteous ones. And if that one person is to suffer and die, and he remains good, he is blessed, since he is the embodiment of the true love.

[Ordnael]

It was in another reality, daytime, probably afternoon. The place was huge, a majestic empire. There was this gate of unimaginable size and a dragon behind it, like a bull behind bars waiting to be released in a rodeo.

He was far away, don't know how far, it was a great distance. I was one among 30 warriors ready to do battle with the dragon, I was holding a big sword, confident that we could do the job.

The gate was opened, but before the dragon escaped he blew a wind towards us. It wasn't fire like in the movies, just his breath, and it knocked down most, if not all of the warriors there, except me. It pushed me backwards a few steps, but I stood still.

Then I noticed we were being watched, not by normal people, I dare say they were gods in the sky, and they applauded and cheered me up when the saw that I could withstand the attack.

When I realized the size of the beast I had no idea how I could defeat it, but I used magic again, my traditional energy bombs. I threw it at him, a coconut-sized, transluscent, green ball of energy, almost invisible. Actually, I didn't even see if my magic was working, I simply imagined I was throwing energy at him, gestured, and eventually it appeared.

It was nothing to him, the dragon just sent it back to me, but I could still control it, so I pushed it out of my way. I decided to use a different strategy, since I was small, I could use it to my advantage. I changed my magic and attacked him again, and this time it was a success. Don't wanna say exactly what I did because it was the first time I tried something like this, so I have to experiment some more with it.

Anyway, I attacked one of his eyes, and it impaired him greatly, then I attacked the other eye, and he was almost done. But I thought that doing this from such a great distance, no one would even know I was the one who killed him. I approached him, and with my sword tried to behead the dragon. The blade only went halfway through his neck.

What a blunder, my clumsiness was starting to show. I remembered what my Higher-Self did last time, swinging and banging the beast against the ground, so I did that. It wasn't nearly as impressive or powerful as my Higher-Self did it, didn't look very professional at all, but it worked, the beast was dead.


I suppose my experience was a battle in the sky, something to do with the weather.

[Ordnael]

In these dreams I see things through the eyes of someone else, a random person in a random situation. In this one I was a girl in high school, sitting quietly in the classroom. There were three girls sitting in the back spreading lies about me, talking menacingly, telling others I have said I thought a certain girl was fat.

I never said that, so I stared at them innocently and uninterested, as if they were talking about someone else. They probably wanted that girl to beat me up. One would think that if you're quiet and on your own, no one will bother you, but it's the opposite, that's when they start picking on you, because they want you to be as evil as they are.

I accidentally dropped an object from my table, and when I got up to grab it another girl came and kicked it. They started laughing at me. I confronted that girl, asking her why she was being so rude, but she was almost getting physically aggressive. Then yet another girl, a fifth one, pretending to be the voice of reason in the room, sided with all the other girls saying I was being rude for starting an argument. She was talking and talking, but everything she was saying proved that I was right and they were wrong. So, I just assumed she was siding with me. I agreed with every word she said, saying, "Yes, you're right, they don't have to be so mean."

I just pretended that she was defending me and thanked her. She didn't want to openly attack me like the others, but she clearly didn't want to be my friend either. I went to talk to her and ask her name. I spoke to her so nicely and treated her so well that she turned her face away from me in shame and started crying. She was walking away, but I insisted in wanting to befriend her, since she was the least evil girl there. I followed her.

Then suddenly a spirit came and grabbed my hand, pulling me in the opposite direction. I couldn't see it, it took me through a hallway, as if saying "Leave these people behind, they're not good for you." I knew it was taking me to heaven, but I couldn't see it either, I just saw colours and bubbles.

[Ordnael]

It was early evening. I was myself but I was doing things that I don't do. I was at a convenience store looking for a chocolate bar. In reality I don't buy chocolate bars, I make my own desserts.

The woman there was nice and helpful, she searched the whole store but couldn't find what I wanted. I was helping her find the chocolate I liked. She moved to an aisle closer to the cashier and found one under some stuff. It wasn't the one I was looking for, it was all battered, broken in pieces and a bit melted. I decided that thing wasn't good and I wasn't going to buy it. I thanked the woman and left the store.

She was upset that after all her effort I didn't like the product, even though it was obviously not something someone should be selling. I was leaving through a corridor when I saw a guy holding a knife in a threatening way next to me. He didn't say a word.

I acted like I wasn't bothered and continued walking at the same pace, showing no concern. I passed him by and placed my hand under my shirt next to my belly button, so that he would think I had a gun. In reality I despise weapons.

I turned my head and looked back at him, he didn't move. He fell for it and gave up trying to come after me. When I reached the outside there was a whole gang sitting around the exit, about 20 people. They started talking among themselves when they saw me, as if I was their prey.

I'm used to these dreams, they usually end up in a big fight where I become lucid and start smashing their (demons) heads against the ground, but sometimes I'm shot, stabbed and hit in multiple ways, without suffering much damage at all.

Not wanting to go through that, I called my Higher-Self, saying "Come, manifest, possess me." Immediately after summoning him, a guy appeared to confront those thugs. He was surely a tough dude and I knew he could take on all of them. Then my Higher-Self appeared in front of me to escort me.

He looked like a typical angel, a bit taller than me. We were walking and I was talking to him, but the whole time he just smiled and said absolutely nothing.

I'm educated, I know one can't speak directly to a deity, even if he is right next to you, it is necessary to have an intermediary to convey the message from the person to the deity and vice-versa, which in my case is the nymph. I asked him where she was, but he just answered "Hello."

I assumed he was reproaching me for asking about her in his divine presence. I meant no disrespect, it's just that I picture us three together. "Hello", I replied to him and explained how grateful I was that he appeared, otherwise I would be stuck in a nightmare.

I asked about what I should do in case something like that happened in real life, and I answered the question myself, saying that "I wouldn't mind being killed as I don't love the body."

I asked him about the deities in heaven, and said I can't wait to be with them. He was guiding me to safety, and before the dream ended I requested that whenever he wants to tell me something, just speak to my heart and my mind, because even if I'm able to hear his voice in my dream, I might end up forgetting it and not understanding.

[Ordnael]

From Saturday, November 25


Prayed before going to bed and had many experiences. The most remarkable were an astral projection in my room, followed by a dream rich in symbolism.

I was in trance and used the 'spinning technique' to create momentum and separate my astral body from the physical. I spun for a very long time before I managed to escape, it took a lot of effort. When I was out-of body I saw myself in the bedroom, but I couldn't hear anything, so I tried to make some noise by moving and striking objects around me.

After a while I gained my hearing and started singing, praising the Lord. Then I found myself in the middle of the room washing marbles inside a plastic bowl filled with soap foam. There were hundreds of marbles, I have no idea what I was doing, I only knew I had to wash them.

I was singing to keep myself stable and the negativity away. My vision was black and white, there were no colors from the beginning. I decided to open the window. It wasn't easy because it was windy. I finally made it, and it was sunny outside. The light that shone inside the room brought some colors, but not all of them, there was a green tint everywhere, but it was now way better than before.

There was a book on the windowsill and it had a drawing on it, it was clearly the most important object in the experience. It showed a deity riding on a dragon or lion. It was beautiful and powerful. Unlike my reality where some colors were missing, the drawing had all the colors and it was amazing. It was probably showing Christ, since I was praising him, or my Higher Self.

I was admiring it for some time before I woke up.


The dream that followed...

I was in a great, bright, sumptuous palace, when I noticed my nymph bathing next to me in a small indoors pool. I wasn't in the water with her, just standing there observing the place. Then I noticed two lions, one to the right next to the wall, about 4 meters (13 feet) away, and one in front of us but somewhat far, more to the left.

I thought "Hey, this is very dangerous!" The one to the right was a female, and it was standing still, observing us, crouching. The one to the left scared me more, because it was moving around, it was a male, and it might come running after us at any moment.

My nymph didn't seem worried about them at all, she was bathing peacefully there, but I thought I needed to protect us. My survival instinct kicked in and I decided to attack the lions and scare them away.

I imagined I had a bow and arrows, and started shooting my arrows at the lion that was far from us. His roar was 'terrifying'. He didn't do anything to threaten us, except being there. I could hear his thunderous voice loud and clear, and I should have been more afraid than I really was.

I didn't see the bow, I didn't see the arrows, and I didn't see him being hit, though I thought that what I was doing was causing him some pain. Maybe they were not a threat, because it wasn't a normal human situation, it was a celestial vision. On earth those lions would clearly be dangerous, but over there perhaps they weren't and I was worried in vain.

The lions didn't do anything to us, and my attacks were futile.

[Ordnael]

Yesterday I was wondering if my sister/mother could go to the Elysian Fields when she leaves this world, her name even resembles the name of that realm.

I had this dream today where I was talking to her, but I was using great irony, because I was congratulating her for her sins. Then I told her I would never do the things that she does, nor engage much with this world, because I'm not from this human realm, but from above.

I began trying to show her and my mother/grandmother (with whom I want no contact) my spiritual powers. It was afternoon, a bucolic landscape of a river and woods. They were sitting but not caring much about what I was doing. I started walking in the air, as if I was crossing an invisible bridge.

They didn't pay much attention, then I said, "Look, you're gonna love this." I descended a bit and started walking on the water, like a ghost. My sister/mother was watching, so I invited her to try and do the same.

For a moment I sank a bit, and told her "See, if I was completely perfect I wouldn't sink." Then with some effort I managed to rise to the surface again and was doing well.

She entered the water of the river, but couldn't walk on it at all, her body sunk completely, so I stretched out my hand to her and tried to pull her up. I asked her "Do you know this scene?"

She couldn't do it, but I didn't let go of her.

[Ordnael]

Another dream with my sister/mother. It was nighttime, there was a fire in her apartment, she was in the living room. Two bedrooms were burning down and there was a lot of smoke, so I couldn't see the extent of the damage, but it was a big, deadly fire.

I was immune, so I entered the first room and summoned a wind spirit to help fight the flames. The spirit came and created a whirlwind inside the room, then it 'captured' the fire and the smoke and went out the window. The room was clean and it had no damage.

The same thing happened in the other room, but after the second whirlwind left there was an orange/yellow afterglow resembling the fire that was there before.


Today in waking reality my sister tells me that my brother/uncle left her with a debt of 12k because of a house she had rented for him in the city, and now he moved to the beach. In my dreams he is always peeing around the house like a dog. Mind you, they're in their 60's. I don't know if all she says is true, but I suggested she cut relations with him.

[Ordnael]

I don't know if they come to me when the time is right (in brainwave terms), if I go somewhere with my consciousness and meet them there, or if they're around and I simply become aware of them in my sleep, but there is a sequence of events.

First I lay down to sleep. My thoughts are very pure, I perceive no presence and no external interference.

After some time I may notice like a door has opened and someone is entering, supposedly in my bedroom. At this point I don't know who it is, it could be a friendly spirit, like my nymph, or it could be someone else.

Then I see scripts within a frame. I don't know if the frame is a screen, it doesn't occupy my whole view. There are a series of frames with scripts in a strange language. They vaguely look like mathematical symbols. I don't know if they are from any known language, could be totally alien. They remind me a little of Linear A, just for the sake of comparison.

I 'recognize' the scripts as being the soul signature of my nymph. It could be something else, it could be that they are talking to me on the unconscious level, and what I'm seeing in trance is the visual manifestation of that communication.

Then I fall asleep and have a vision. Today we were together in a sepia color animation, embracing and flowing like a sweet perfume in the breeze.

The dreams that follow through the night don't necessarily have any connection with these events. So, it feels in my sleep like there is the human reality where I'm just lying in bed, this parallel reality where I experienced the contact (which some could interpret as being the real-time zone of the Astral Plane), and the dream reality.

[Ordnael]

In my interpretation, Lilith is the false gift, the one who will pretend to be a partner, but lacks the qualities. Like in the story of Cinderella, many may want to fit the shoe, but it belongs to only one, the true bride and counterpart.

And how does Adam find out if he is with Eve or Lilith? The trials of time will prove each one's worth.

My fairy is a special guide, she's wise, virtuous, good and powerful, she doesn't let me down and is always there when things are most difficult. But there can be interferences, not different from life with a human partner, except that in my case I have to deal with demons.


Tonight it was difficult. In trance I was hearing only demonic voices, I couldn't hear my own thoughts. They were full of hate and darkness, and in my thoughts I was trying to laugh about it and think of love, but I wasn't hearing myself because they were so loud.

In a dream I was in the house where many pets died and also my granny. It was a cloudy afternoon. There were family members in the backyard playing with puppies. First I was talking about how I'm allergic to dogs with long fur, then I started flying around pretending to be walking up the steps of an invisible stairway, 'the stairway to heaven'. They didn't care abut it.

I decided to leave them and meet my fairy. As I floated away from the house I asked her to 'abduct' me. I never used that word before, but I really wanted to be lifted up to the sky quickly.

It was a stormy day with lightnings, it wasn't pleasant. A force started pulling me to the left. I wasn't afraid of the lightning as I floated in the sky, but I wondered if I could be struck by one and what would happen.

I flew over a city landscape, buildings, houses, not much nature at all. The landscape wasn't particularly beautiful according to my standards. Anyway, I asked my Higher Self to prevent me from waking up, because being carried away often makes me excited and lose focus.

I was taken inside a mall, which I know from experience isn't a very interesting astral place. There a woman grabbed my hand and started walking with me, as I searched for my fairy. Well, I assumed it was her and kissed her, but there was something off.

I asked her how her fairy business was doing. And she said "I was never a fairy". Then I asked "So, you aren't a nymph then?", and she replied with sadness "Oh, no". "You are a demon?", I asked. Then she revealed herself and started crying, dissolving her body like jelly slime.

Disappointed, I prayed that God sent to me my counterpart, but suddenly I lost my voice and couldn't speak anymore. Maybe I was taken inside a dark cloud, there were 'people' walking around, coming in and going out the doors, but none of them approached me or payed attention to me. That place was hopeless, then I woke up.

When I was awake I asked my nymph in thought what happened, and she said "You rejected Lilith."

[Ordnael]

Candle Song, by Ugly Kid Joe, is the song I tried to sing with the fairies in that dream (Post #9 21-01-2020). Two male fairies, one playing the guitar and the other one singing, it was incredible. I can sing that song perfectly well in waking reality, but in that dream my performance was awful and I was embarrassed.

To me it was an advice that I needed to find my divine partner, because "my ship's got a hole in the side. I'm all alone, me and my daydreams at night."