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Originally Posted by DoctorStrange
Hi folks,
I'm sitting with something that is driving me nuts.
4 years ago i received an akashic record reading, that said, i will go to a certain country, meet a certain someone, to sort out past life issues with, and live there for a while before returning to my own country.
Thing is, i have absolutely no desire or want to go there. I feel i want to create my own path using the "tools" that suit me best for my experience here.
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Then don't go.
Why are you giving whoever gave you this "akashic record reading" so much authority? Why do you believe them, over your own heart's desires, and at your own expense?
When I was a teenager, I was a real handful. My mother, in desperation, took me to an extremely well-regarded psychic for a private reading. Mom had been part of a New Thought church for a while, and this woman came recommended by lots of people in the church who gave glowing testimonials of how she'd changed their lives and helped them on their path.
I don't recall most of what the psychic said, because not too far into the reading she told me that there were two souls out there, waiting to be born as my children, and that when I was about 24 or 25 I'd meet a red-haired man who would become my husband and the father of those children. She gave me a few specifics on how my husband and I would meet, and what my future daughter would be like.
And as she went into a rapturous description of my future as a mother, I knew she was a fraud, and that what she was saying had nothing whatsoever to do with me.
I was 16 or 17 at the time, and after hearing all about this woman I went into the reading with an open mind. In fact, I
hoped she could help me, because while I had a few clear future goals I was steering by, I still felt lost at sea. But there were things I already knew about myself, and my purpose on earth in this incarnation, and I had known these things since I was a child.
One was that marriage was not going to be a priority, and if it happened at all it would not be until I was well into midlife (I'm 50, and it still hasn't happened, and IDGAF; life's been grand without it).
The other was that I would not have children. That was never even a question for me--
I was never going to have children. Period. Full stop. End of story. As a woman, I was going to do lots of things with my life, and have all kinds of experiences, but motherhood would never be one of them.
A lot of who I was going to be and what I was going to do was still fuzzy, but those two things never were.
Ever. They were part of my purpose here, and my soul made sure I got reminders as a child so I'd know it and not go off track later.
As for the psychic--maybe she was a knowing fraud, but I got the feeling she actually believed what she was saying. She obviously wasn't getting rich by giving readings; she and her disabled husband lived in a rundown little house in the country, surrounded by weeds and junked appliances. It was a cold, rainy day, and we sat in her old clunker of a car for the reading so we could smoke, instead of doing it in the house, because her husband had some sort of lung disease. She seemed like a nice lady, in a hardscrabble way; I liked her.
And I couldn't even get mad when she started telling me scenes from a life that I already knew wasn't mine. Because even as I sat there and half-listened to her rattle on, what I took from that reading was that nobody else could tell me about what my path was--only I could. Nobody had more authority when it came to my own soul's progress than I did.
If I wanted to know what my future was going to be like, I had to decide what it was going to be, and create it for myself.
And when given any sort of "guidance" from various readers, channelers, psychics, and mediums over the years, I have always been free to reject it if isn't in accordance with my soul's purpose. It makes no difference how skilled they allegedly are, or how authoritative their words seem to be.
I've never paid for such services, but throughout my 20s I was a magnet for unsolicited insights from people who claimed they knew what my future held, and every single blasted one of them was wrong. And that was fine--because each time I encountered one of those people, I had a chance to stop and reconnect with my own inner authority, rather than meekly accept others'.
Granted, not everybody's had that really strong reinforcement of what their soul's path is that I got in childhood. So how do you know if a path you're being told to take isn't actually yours? Simple.
It doesn't feel like yours. When presented with it, it feels wrong. It puts your stomach in knots, or makes you feel tired, or you feel other forms of inner resistance.
That doesn't mean that your soul's path is always sunshine, roses, and glittery unicorn farts. There have been times in my life when I was faced with an unpleasant choice or undesirable circumstances, and yet I knew deep-down that going through whatever difficulties they posed was going to be worth it. It may not have felt great, but I had the sense that by bearing the burden for a little while, I'd be able to take something valuable from the experience. That's the soul talking.
So forget about this person who claims to have access to the Akashic Records, and what they claim you need to do to "clear karma" in this lifetime, or whatever other nonsense they're selling. I don't care how much you paid them, or what their reputation is; if what they said to do only brings you pain, torment, and feelings of resistance, then it's
garbage.
So stay home and love those dogs for the rest of their lives. Experience that joy--that's what you're here for. If there's some "karmic debt" you need to clear up, then the opportunity will present itself--you don't have to be unwillingly dragged halfway across the world to do it at spiritual gunpoint.
We are all part of the infinite One. As souls, we're eternal beings. If our souls have unfinished business, they have, literally, ALL THE TIME IN THE WORLD to complete it; nothing is totally dependent upon finishing it in this fleeting incarnation. It'll get done eventually--which will still be an eyeblink in eternity.
Also, because we are all part of the infinite One, seeking out an individual soul embodied somewhere here on earth isn't necessary--if you're supposed to meet here you will, without having to force it. And any lessons or "unfinished business" can be carried out from where you are right now. If you committed injustices against others in another incarnation, you don't have to seek out individual souls who were your victims--you just have to stop committing injustices (and knowingly benefiting from injustices committed by others) right here, right now, in this lifetime.
What you do from where you are ripples outward, across time and space. Follow your soul's lead in this lifetime by doing what feels right, just, and true, with love, and it will ripple outward to balance whatever imbalance you may have created in an incarnation when you didn't know better. And not only is there no need to do violence against yourself, and create suffering for other beings who love you, in order to "fix" anything, but doing so just creates more pain and negativity that will need "fixing."
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