My story, need advice

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I have been question about tf/sm for a while but now I think I understand it , I already met my twin , actually he's the first notic this and now i think i just get it
Everything about him, about us made me feel that's same me , his eyes, his face ,his move everything i saw i feel this's me. Brfore this, I tried to refuse him refuse my own feelings, i told myself "it's not , maybe i just crazy" I tried not to see him, I run away from him , that's made me so pain so hurt in my heart.
Now, i stop running from him , i stay , we keep contact everyday. Now i think my feelings to him is too much strong, i feel our mind keep thinking about us all the time wanted to become one, even while i sleep i still see him. I don't know if this is really good or happy to meet my twin. It's happy and sad at the same time. It's seem impossible for us to be together, many things seem impossible. I see pain , trauma in his heart , I really need to help heal him , just wish he's happy. I think that all i need. I have pain in my heart not different from him. I just don't understand why we met? We're not ready?