My Hypothesis/Philosophy (New Age Hedonism)

[MattMVS7]

I wish to share to you and others my hypothesis/philosophy. It is something based upon my own personal and profound experiences. However, it will also need some explaining to clarify some things. There could be a way to discover evidence for it if there really is evidence out there for it. But I am not sure how that could be done. So, I will now go ahead and present to you my hypothesis/philosophy and the explanation along with it. I don't care if others think it is complete nonsense. It is just my own personal conviction and I just wish to share it to you and others to gve you, others, my therapist, etc. insight into who I am, how I think, and what my values are. Although, I would highly recommend reading the whole explanation since it gives more insight. If you don't have time to, then just read my hypothesis/philosophy:

Hypothesis/Philosophy: Our good moods/feelings (which I define as the states of well being induced by the various feel-good neurotransmitters/chemicals in the brain) are the only things that can give our lives a real perceptual quality (experience) of good value, worth, joy, beauty, love, inspiration, and happiness. A person cannot become perceptually aware of these qualities without his/her good moods/feelings since, again, our good moods/feelings are the perceptual awareness of these qualities.

Explanation: I don't think that we define our experiences through our value judgments. I think it is the other way around. I think it is our experiences that determine whether we have an experience that is hell, beautiful, joyful, good, bad, etc. I don't agree that life is about what we judge. I think it is about what we experience. So, I think it's what's on the inside that counts. Like I said before, according to my hypothesis, it would only be the good and bad moods/feelings that give us these joyful, beautiful, horrible, hellish, etc. qualities of experience. Moments where you are experiencing your good moods/feelings are moments where you are perceiving good value/worth in your life. Moments where you are experiencing your bad moods/feelings are moments where you are perceiving bad value in your life. Lastly, experiencing neither good or bad moods/feelings are moments where you perceive no value/no worth in your life. The profoundness and intensity of our good and bad moods/feelings dictates the level of perceptual value. If you experienced the most powerful bliss of your life, then you would be perceiving the most powerful good value/worth of your life. But if you experienced a very slim amount of good moods/feelings, then that would only offer you a small perceptual awareness of good value/worth in your life.

What we consider to be value judgments are actually qualities of experience (our good and bad moods/feelings) and not value judgments at all. This means that a beautiful experience is synonymous with a good mood/feeling experience just as how sight is synonymous with visualization since they are the same thing. This is a new definition of these terms I have created. Other definitions do still exist. For example, people still possess great talents and famous paintings are still beautiful works of art. However, we cannot actually perceive these talents/works of art as being anything good, beautiful, and worthwhile without our good moods/feelings. It would be no different than a situation where a blind person can very well believe sight exists and acknowledge its existence. But he/she can't actually see. Our perceived values do not come about through judgments and from simply acknowledging that things are beautiful and have good value to us in our lives. So, even though other definitions of value and beauty still exist, this new perceptual definition I have come up with is the only definition that can allow us to actually see the good value, worth, and beauty that these things in our lives hold.

If we lived in a world where experiences themselves are neither horrible nor beautiful and it was all just a matter of value judgment judging our experiences as horrible and beautiful, then that would be absolutely nothing compared to a world where experiences themselves truly were horrible and beautiful. To have an experience that is literally horrible/beautiful would be the ultimate experience of your life. You would truly know what it is like to be a higher form of a conscious entity (being) as opposed to a mere conscious entity that makes judgments. You would be an experiencing entity rather than a judging entity. You would truly know what it is like to experience hell and paradise as opposed to making mere judgments. However, we already are these experiencing entities and people are just too caught up in insisting that they are instead the judging entities. Let's pretend that there were two separate universes. Universe #1 is a universe where beautiful/horrible experiences do not exist and that perceiving good value, horrible value, worth, joy, beauty, and happiness is nothing more than a matter of value judgment. However, in universe #2, these qualities are actual experiences for the individual. The individual is able to literally have experiences that yield these qualities.

He/she is able to experience, what he/she metaphorically describes as, the "divine light" which is an experience that gives him/her the perceptual awareness of good value/worth in his/her life. The perceptual awareness of good value/worth that universe #1 offers is nothing more than just a mere judgment. But universe #2 offers a transcended form of awareness that beats universe #1's out of the water. By the standard of universe #2, the perceptual awareness of these values/qualities that exist in universe #1 would be nothing. It would be like comparing a universe that consists of machines with mechanistic qualities versus a universe that consists of human beings with higher, humanistic qualities such as love and joy. I am the being of universe #2 and I need a form of awareness that meets my standard of perceptual good value/worth. That would obviously be through my good moods/feelings. As a matter of fact, I think we are all beings of universe #2 and that the standard of perceptual good value/worth we currently believe in and live by is nothing. It does not meet any human standard at all even though we currently do not realize it. That is why we need an awakening to the New Age Hedonistic values I talk about. That will allow us to be awakened to a standard of perceptual good value/worth that was truly meant for us as human beings and is truly who we are as human beings.

Imagine if a person was in the worst possible state of hellish torment of his/her life. He/she reports back to you that it was the most horrible and hellish experience of his/her life. From there, you just say to this person that he/she is using nothing more than value judgments. The person becomes very frustrated and angry at you because you are not seeing his/her experience for what it truly was. This experience truly was the most horrible, hellish, and tormenting experience of his/her life and you would be doing nothing more than dismissing what it is that he/she truly experienced. Likewise, people who have the most powerful and profound blissful/heavenly near death experiences would report to you that it was not just some very blissful journey. They would say that they have experienced the most powerful and profound joy, beauty, and love of their life. So, this would actually be a whole new definition of those terms (qualities). I think this definition really does exist contrary to what others say in an attempt to dismiss a person's experience for what it truly was. However, like I said, I think this definition only applies to our good and bad moods/feelings and doesn't apply to other experiences that people have reported to also be beautiful, tormenting, hellish, etc.

Actually, I am very well open to the possibility that my definition also applies to other experiences besides just the good and bad moods/feelings. It's just that I really object to this idea because I have lived most of my life depressed/miserable from traumatic life events and ocd thoughts. I have never perceived any real quality of beauty, joy, good value, and worth in my life living this way. That is why I am fed up with this whole idea that my life can be good, worth living, beautiful, etc. to me living that way. But continuing on here. People are living their lives by these external value judgments. They think that it is instead what they judge that determines whether the experience they have is beautiful, joyful, good, bad, etc. But that is like judging a book by its cover and not actually looking deep inside to know the actual story for what it truly is. In other words, these external value judgments have people focused away from the truthiness of their inner experience. It is as though people are focused on external things and obligations rather than looking deep inside and seeing what their inner experience truly is. How can one leave out his/her inner experience? Experience (consciousness) is so precious. It is everything to life and being human. Without it, then we would either be dead or unconscious.

I will give you another example. When I am experiencing the most beautiful feelings of my life, then people would come up to me and say:

"What's the big deal? Good moods/feelings are nothing more than some happy feel-good chemicals in the brain. There is nothing special about them. I have far more greater things to live for than this."

As you can see here, people are focusing on things and looking at my good moods/feelings on the surface. But they are not looking at my actual experience here. This is further proof that people are only focusing on external obligations, duties, and are looking at things from a purely conceptual point of view. But they do not look at things from an experiential point of view. As long as we live our lives by value judgments and think that it is us as human beings who determine what type of experience we have through our personal judgments, then our experience takes the back seat while these value judgments become the primary factor in determining the value of our life's experience. But my intention is to reverse this. What I am doing here is putting experience in the front seat and setting aside these value judgments.

As long as we live our lives by value judgments and think that it is us as human beings who determine what type of experience we have through our personal judgments, then our experience takes the back seat while these value judgments become the primary factor in determining the value of our life's experience. But my intention is to reverse this. What I am doing here is putting experience in the front seat and setting aside these value judgments. As for why I don't have any positive emotional response, it is because all my positive emotions (good moods/feelings) get completely turned off during emotionally traumatic events in my life that put me in a state of complete hopelessness and misery. That is not my fault and is something that just happens. My brain completely turns off all those positive emotions. But once I fully recover from these miserable events, then all my positive emotions return back to me again. As for deluding oneself, the most harmful and cruel sociopath can think and believe that he/she loves his/her family, but he/she has no idea what love is. He/she would not be perceiving any real love towards his/her family at all. In that same sense, people just have no idea what good value, worth, joy, beauty, inspiration, and happiness really are.

They would not be perceiving any of those qualities without their good moods/feelings. Couldn't it really be possible that my view really does apply to all human beings though? There might truly be only one way of obtaining this perceptual quality of good value/worth in our lives just as how there is truly only one way to see and hear. We can't have sight when we are blind and we can't have hearing when we are deaf. Therefore, I think that this whole notion of my worldview applying to everybody could very well be true. There are truly things in this world which can only be one way. Sometimes in life, we can't have things our own way. Continuing on here. If the exact same experience that the person reported as hellish and horrible was an experience for you that you reported as just being unpleasant and nothing more, then this can only be because the experience was different for you. It is not a matter of value judgment. However, if the experience truly was the same for you and the other person, then you would have to be blinded from your own inner experience. You would not be able to see that it truly was a horrible and hellish experience.

Let me give you an example here. If there was someone truly innocent and beautiful on the inside who had a daunting appearance, then one could easily project a value judgment upon him/her and think that he/she is an ugly person. However, he/she would not realize that this person is truly beautiful on the inside. This is a general rule of life. It even applies to our own experiences. Just because you judge an experience to be beautiful, hell, or joyful does not make it so. You have to truly see the experience for what it is on the inside. Only then can you truly see the experience for what it is. Let me give you another example here. Let's pretend that someone was burning alive in a lake of fire forever which would be the Christian doctrine of hell. Just go with this pretend situation anyway even if you are a non believer in these things because this analogy makes the point I am trying to make. If this person, while burning alive forever, screamed:

"Please get me out of here! I am suffering through the absolute worst hell!"

Imagine from there you said to this person:

"That is just a matter of your value judgment, sir. You will be just fine in that lake of fire. Just judge this experience as something beautiful and it will become an eternal beautiful paradise for you."

As you can see here, this is the exact same attitude other people are displaying towards me when I struggle with the absolute worst hellish misery, depression, and despair of my life due to an emotionally traumatic life event or ocd thoughts. These people do not realize that such miserable experiences truly possess a horrible quality to them that yield a perceptual experience that makes my life the absolute worst hell completely empty and devoid of any good value/worth. If I was just sitting there with absolutely no experience of any good or bad moods/feelings whatsoever and I thought to myself and believed that I was having the absolute worst hellish experience of my life, then this experience would possess a quality to it which wouldn't be anything at all.

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