A light of hope...

[smARTistic girl]

This.

This has been my lesson. The hurt that I experienced when my SC disappeared on me, mid-conversation, a couple of years ago led me to initially want to give up and close my heart. But the mere thought of it left me SO indescribably sad that I realized that I just can't do it. If I live without love, I won't feel the need to breathe. Sounds dramatic, and I don't mean it to, but I discovered that without the ability to love, I am nothing. So what you wrote makes a lot of sense to me. Thanks for sharing.

Originally Posted by umbridge

And something to add as I read AQ post in her site
That do not ever ever ever close your heart.
Pain really does that with your heart, but you have to open it.
I recently discovered and realized how closed I really was, because I hold too much old stuff there -old emotions, pain, hurt, wounds, loss, grief etc.
My heart did not function properly. It causes me hurt. It was hurtful for me to live with the pain from the past every day. So I released it and suddenly I realized how all my life I have protected my heart, because I was afraid of getting hurt, now I am doing, trying to do the opposite. Living my life with an open heart. When your heart is open, even if you lose something or someone, your body or your energy system heals yourself. And you will get pass this and you will survive. But never close your heart. It causes great pain to live with a closed heart.

[kerrielle]

My heart is physically damaged by all this. I can feel the pain sometimes when I try to block some of this off. It is more painful to deny the connection and love, even if there are obstacles in this world to the pull to be closer. Sure, that's painful... but pain is a part of life, and we live through it, learning from it and then we can let it go and let the love energy back in. I'm starting to accept that this will always ebb and flow according to a bigger picture I may not see. Trust and faith are needed, every single day. Love can be cultivated and cared for. It doesn't need owning or labeling or keeping. It just needs nurturing and we each nurture it in our OWN hearts, in our own ways.

Originally Posted by kerrielle

My heart is physically damaged by all this. I can feel the pain sometimes when I try to block some of this off. It is more painful to deny the connection and love, even if there are obstacles in this world to the pull to be closer. Sure, that's painful... but pain is a part of life, and we live through it, learning from it and then we can let it go and let the love energy back in. I'm starting to accept that this will always ebb and flow according to a bigger picture I may not see. Trust and faith are needed, every single day. Love can be cultivated and cared for. It doesn't need owning or labeling or keeping. It just needs nurturing and we each nurture it in our OWN hearts, in our own ways.

Beautiful post Kerrielle. And I hope your heart is not too damaged and will recover.

[smARTistic girl]

Originally Posted by kerrielle

My heart is physically damaged by all this. I can feel the pain sometimes when I try to block some of this off. It is more painful to deny the connection and love, even if there are obstacles in this world to the pull to be closer. Sure, that's painful... but pain is a part of life, and we live through it, learning from it and then we can let it go and let the love energy back in. I'm starting to accept that this will always ebb and flow according to a bigger picture I may not see. Trust and faith are needed, every single day. Love can be cultivated and cared for. It doesn't need owning or labeling or keeping. It just needs nurturing and we each nurture it in our OWN hearts, in our own ways.

I'm right there with you.