Hating your TF

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I think in the beginning of my journey with the tf thing. I was a wee bit miffed that he wouldn't make a move toward dating. But I later I figured it all out and relized it needed to play out like it has. I learned so much about who he is and knew it would have to be me to push it. At the time I couldn't get past my initial reaction to him( I would hear his voice and that sent me into adrenalin rushes that lasted a long time. I would shake so bad that I could spill a hot cup of coffee. My chest was warm other little things in the reaction) Oddly I have always been the instigator in my personal romantic relationships. this one nope. lol so i was angry at myself too.

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Originally Posted by wetherspoonred

Something she said put a wedge between us and it was never right after that. But, it was all EGO and my reaction to what she said was ego-based - just my offended ego pitted against her's... The soul [as in twinsoul] would never react like that. Although, perhaps our souls were just testing us and we failed - the soul is always captain of the ship.

EXACTLY the same thing happened between us. He told me that " HE only wanted good people in his life" And since that day I have never been able to forgive him and it has caused a wedge between us. And I am sorry to say that I have definately felt hate towards him for that and many other hutrful comments he made over 8 years that I just kept swallowing and pushing aside.