no contact?

Originally Posted by SunSister

Mine. I couldn't take all the idiotic things he was putting me through any longer. I put up with far too much from that man for far too long a time. I walked away because I wanted him to grow up and take responsibility for himself and his actions. I couldn't stand the confusing influx of emotions any longer that kept flowing in because he was too scared to deal with them himself. To be honest, I just didn't stick around in his life because I was too scared I was going to smack him full-on in the nose.

His. He has always had the habit of running as fast as he could into any opposite directions from where he should actually be going. His way of handling emotions and fights is to simply walk away. (Needless to say: I am his polar opposite in this. When I get emotional, I stay and I fight quite heavily.) He was the one who always said things like "I don't need a woman to be my equal", so he really walked away from me all on his own. He awakened far too fast and expected everybody else to pick up the pieces for him.

As you can see, it was very much a mutual decision to not have any contact for the time being. I could lie through my teeth and say that he did all of it, but then I'd be downplaying my own role in all the fights and arguments and cold shoulders and stuff. Oh, I do miss that though. I miss the way we clashed over every little thing just to keep ourselves on our toes. I miss how we squabbled about my logic not being his logic and how big his head got when I paid him a compliment. I miss all the crazy stuff we pulled together and all the nutcase ideas we laughed about when it was just him and me in a room. I miss the goosebumps and the half-smiles and the eyerolling, haha. Leaving the physical connection was very much a mutual decision, but I think that we're the typical examples of people who're already very powerful forces of nature when kept separate.. having us together in one room was like a natural disaster wrapped in Christmas packaging.. so, really, I think the decision to walk away was the smartest one we ever made as a team.

yep i hear you on this one.....matt was the 1st to admit to pushing everyone away when he felt he was getting too close. so he pushed & pushed & i stood my ground for as long as he allowed. we could be quite nasty towards each other but it was always to get some sort of reaction when either of us was having doubts about our spirituality or our awakening experience. as he lives 12000 miles away we would spend all day & sometimes most of the night just chatting on the net, we were never stuck for things to say & we both had the same sarcastic sense of humour.
matt is a very powerful soul but really doesn't know how to channel that power yet even though he thinks he's in control of it. over the past year i have 'come into myself' & truly awakened which i must admit was all down to meeting matt as he encouraged me to open myself up to enlightenment as previously i was too afraid to want to experience it.
because of several different reasons, i started to lose it mentally & was on the verge of a mental breakdown. this is where matt decided to abandon me. it was devastating & i hate being away from him but my mind is once again calm which is good. (matt has bipolar & i am empathic & was actually taking on his behaviour everytime we were in contact) so no physical contact is really the best thing right now for my own sanity!!!

[mystical]

Originally Posted by debbie.b

yep i hear you on this one.....matt was the 1st to admit to pushing everyone away when he felt he was getting too close. so he pushed & pushed & i stood my ground for as long as he allowed. we could be quite nasty towards each other but it was always to get some sort of reaction when either of us was having doubts about our spirituality or our awakening experience. as he lives 12000 miles away we would spend all day & sometimes most of the night just chatting on the net, we were never stuck for things to say & we both had the same sarcastic sense of humour.
matt is a very powerful soul but really doesn't know how to channel that power yet even though he thinks he's in control of it. over the past year i have 'come into myself' & truly awakened which i must admit was all down to meeting matt as he encouraged me to open myself up to enlightenment as previously i was too afraid to want to experience it.
because of several different reasons, i started to lose it mentally & was on the verge of a mental breakdown. this is where matt decided to abandon me. it was devastating & i hate being away from him but my mind is once again calm which is good. (matt has bipolar & i am empathic & was actually taking on his behaviour everytime we were in contact) so no physical contact is really the best thing right now for my own sanity!!!

every single word of this is true for me too , scarey lol

that's the thing mystical......so many people mock the concept of twin flames but our experiences all resonate with each other in one way or another so how can we be getting it all wrong? none of us knew one another before we met on here & how many times have we all said 'i could have written that'?
we're not silly young girls that don't know the difference between one emotion or another......... :-)

Deb,
If you want to get real mad go see what SeaZen wrote as the last post in my thread Story...grrr.

He ran.

But according to my dreams, he has admitted his regret and I interpreted many of them to mean that he ran from the most important thing in his life but at the time he wasn't ready.........but he has asked me to wait and has said he would return........though he won't say when...........like he's trying to surprise me. Its all good.

In prayer one night, I asked God to ask him for me if there was one thing he could say to me if he were standing in front of me............what would it be?

And I dreamt some plumber or something came to my condo looking for my roomate and I told him that he wasn't here and he'd have to call or come back later, and the guy refused to leave and said he'd wait. I was getting frustrated with him, but he wouldn't leave!

When I woke up, I realized what the dream meant. He was saying to me that when he comes back into my life.........he refuses to leave again. And I draw comfort from that.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NHydn...eature=related

This song - The Power of Goodbye by Madonna

I had to walk away because what I felt for him was consuming me. It has been two weeks now and the dreams started again last night (full moon for you eh). This song eats away at my heart, but I have to keep moving on now.

He just isn't open or awake enough to recognise this - he could see something, I could see it in his eyes and felt it in his energies, but he is no way ready for this.

Originally Posted by SpiritStarFly1

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NHydngA5C4E&feature=related

This song - The Power of Goodbye by Madonna

I had to walk away because what I felt for him was consuming me. It has been two weeks now and the dreams started again last night (full moon for you eh). This song eats away at my heart, but I have to keep moving on now.

He just isn't open or awake enough to recognise this - he could see something, I could see it in his eyes and felt it in his energies, but he is no way ready for this.

i feel for you. it is so hard. sending you lots of love

I actually think it is a wonderful thing for us to find recognition and solace in one another's stories. We all seem to be in different stages of dealing with the TF-experiences, which makes our posts both teachings and therapy when we talk about it. It's great to see that we are not alone.

exactly right SunSister. wonderful it is to find others who have very similar stories to our own. at times before i came on sf i thought it was all in my head & i was imagining what was going on, or even worse, thought i may be going mad!!! lol x

[NightSpirit]

Originally Posted by SunSister

Mine. I couldn't take all the idiotic things he was putting me through any longer. I put up with far too much from that man for far too long a time. I walked away because I wanted him to grow up and take responsibility for himself and his actions. I couldn't stand the confusing influx of emotions any longer that kept flowing in because he was too scared to deal with them himself. To be honest, I just didn't stick around in his life because I was too scared I was going to smack him full-on in the nose.

His. He has always had the habit of running as fast as he could into any opposite directions from where he should actually be going. His way of handling emotions and fights is to simply walk away. (Needless to say: I am his polar opposite in this. When I get emotional, I stay and I fight quite heavily.) He was the one who always said things like "I don't need a woman to be my equal", so he really walked away from me all on his own. He awakened far too fast and expected everybody else to pick up the pieces for him.

As you can see, it was very much a mutual decision to not have any contact for the time being. I could lie through my teeth and say that he did all of it, but then I'd be downplaying my own role in all the fights and arguments and cold shoulders and stuff. Oh, I do miss that though. I miss the way we clashed over every little thing just to keep ourselves on our toes. I miss how we squabbled about my logic not being his logic and how big his head got when I paid him a compliment. I miss all the crazy stuff we pulled together and all the nutcase ideas we laughed about when it was just him and me in a room. I miss the goosebumps and the half-smiles and the eyerolling, haha. Leaving the physical connection was very much a mutual decision,

.

This is a perfect example of soul completing itself...meaning...the soul acknowledging its full presence...
Unfortunately, most times, our human-ness will cause us to react, even though the soul knows better. Sadly, most times we are not yet armed with the tools to over-ride our foolishness and see it for what it really is. When both parties have a good handle on this, great communication, and both work extremely hard to overcome these last vestiges, then you both will stay together and harness that power and project it outwardly for the higher good of all.