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Originally Posted by dryad
Sounds like your getting overwhemed by his negative energy and its overiding your conscious control. Your probabaly also overcharging yourself in the healing process maybe when you were unconscious as the subconscious doesnt necessarily know when to stop.
Are you trying to balance his negative energy by addding an equal amount of positive energy? .... They dont cancel each other out you just end up with twice as much energy and that can be a problem. Hence the burning. If your overcharged you are essentially unstable too so you could be sending him unstable energy which would not be very helpful.
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His negative energy is hurting his aspects. He has a female and the child that come to me and when he drinks a lot, the female cries. The child acts out. His inner beast is a... beast lol. The female has gotten a lot better since I built a rapport with her and the child can be a bit temperamental. If it doesn't get what it wants, it'll say things like "I hate you! Why are you abandoning me?" You know, most people who get drunk make phone calls at 3 in the morning... I get aspects that come to me shouting and crying. It's stressful.
I have a male presence helping me. And there's a female that usually stays around him. She said, "I'm not usually around because the boy needs my help." The male said he's been assisting me with the awakening process. Anyway, last night, my TF's inner child came to me crying and I said "Do you want to be held?" and he said yes. It felt like some parts of my body were burning. The male presence said, "FINALLY! She becomes the lion!" I had a dream I was sitting on the floor with the child in my lap, reading a children's book.
But then naturally, I got the indication that that part was all taken care of and there was a new thing going on. This new thing has to do with the dark aspect, the negative energy. His is really strong. It's gotten tamer every time I've seen it, but it's still daunting. The male presence said, "This is going to be a challenge." And something about us burying our pain. I don't know what I buried, if it's even something that happened to me. The more I find out about my TF's painful memories, the more it explains my past behaviors. And I know for a fact these things didn't happen to me. I'm always willing to dive in and find the root of an issue and solve it. I guess that's a bit haphazard, but in this scenario, I can't do that anymore. I can't even do my own independent work anymore. Every time I try and affirm I'm JUST going into my own mind, his memories and thoughts pop up. So his stuff is "buried" inside me too but I don't have access to it quite yet. Ughhhh... Sorry for the novel. The burying thing is really bothering me right now.