I'm the worst

Thank you! I love to write. I always have. It was my therapy for years.
I don't write as much anymore. I always go back and read what I wrote later on
and it embarasses me.
I would usually just rip out the embarassing things and continue but now just
feel stupid and worse about myself.
I don't feel good enough for me or anyone else. I can be better and I don't know how.
I really just think I need the ocean.

[Belle]

Writing is indeed an amazing therapy. You don't need to keep it, I have discarded stuff that I wrote as I cringe - yuck yuck - but it does tend to slow the thoughts down.

Focus on the facts, not the feelings as much as you can. You might not feel good enough for you or anyone else - but you are more than good enough - you are perfect as you are.

Awee! Thank you so much

Having just joined these forums I feel I could have wrote this first post. I really used to try with people and don't understand why I am unable to find forever type friendships.

I am always doubting myself...am I a boring so and so, or am I a bad person and others can see this.

There are some people that I feel like I have to talk to, this could be a complete stranger at a bus stop or at a checkout... I just feel they (or I ) needed to say something.

Now I rarely go out as I feel I am being judged.
I do think I am crazy but sometimes random people would come into my head and that evening I would see them or they would out of the blue call.

I don't even think my post makes sense but sometimes there is so much going on inside my head but when I write It out it even sound crazy...