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Originally Posted by Maisy
I think being an identified self is optional in every given moment. But then in life and in relationships with others and our roles and jobs we usually need to be an identified self. But then I think it could be great to turn it off when not needed and then just "be." Not be a something or a somebody.
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for me it is a mixed bag... unfamiliar sensations, unfamiliar ways to relate... often wondering how much trouble I'm getting myself into with other people... over the years I've learned to step out for short periods though without having to be in a 'quiet' room meditating... with an aim toward living that way more permanently if ever I get there lol...
definitely it helps not to try to find a high place for myself within society though. The stuff that was said about humility and love and servitude and some other stuff is very handy... even if many people don't have any idea what was actually said but rather what they think things should look like...
but i also question these days whether 'being' is the end of it. After all, if you have a full glass, it is well known you have to empty it... which would take you into being... but i wonder if there isn't something else I might want to put into the glass rather than what I've been taught to... at least for a little while until I get inspired to empty it again though I guess...
so maybe returning to being a 'child' goes on from being with some different kind of education, if one isn't entirely sure one must just simply stop. Maybe somehow you get to keep the awakeness and other things you unlearned while emptying yourself and build on that instead of building on unconsciousness and automated responses and trying to get what you think you want.
certainly jesus said something about us doing miracles, and moreso than he did... i have had a hard time deciding how to just 'be' my way into such a thing though lol...
OTOH maybe the idea there is something more is more bunk like everything else I seem to come up with sigh... maybe the answer is after all just to be still... along those lines maybe I should go back to the tried and true of just shutting up some more...
and that is the problem I see so many possibilities it makes my head spin and just choosing one at random seems oh so arbitrary, so, I have to do the best to make choices that somehow make sense in some way other than me playing spin the bottle.