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The light of the Lord was by my side. However, my angel contact says that it might well have been fake goodies just playing a game.
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dear Tristan, that's your quote.
I am sorry I am diverting this thread again,but just to pass this message on totristan and those similarly scared and helpless due to some horrible extremely sad, scary, painful and inherently isolating, unbelievable experience.
none of what is say in this post is my belief or otherwise, its logic having read Tristan's experiences and his desperate attempts to keep others away from such an experience, assuming that he naturally is doing the only ways he has understood how to, at this point if time.
I haven't finished reading this post yet.
but I am sorry for your deeply scary and painful experiences. ap or not. it doesn't really matter, what you experienced is all that matters.
it is not difficult to see why you are so desperate, at the price of people hating you for your persistence with it, to prevent others from experiencing such an unbelievable scary thing, you do not want them to suffer. that in your mind is clear and also that you see the suffering linked strongly to 'ap'. your statement quoted above is something you could ponder on. may be that is the truth.
it does seem like you are trying your best to make sense of all that fear by believing in god. whatever name you want to give to the almighty in a way doesn't matter. whatever feels right for you at this stage. it seems like there is little else you can trust to depend upon.
however, am writing to point out one thing. now fallen angels, you say, what are their characteristics? inducing fear, hatred, pain, suffering, confusion, chaos, etc isn't it, and they do this by projecting images or dsold rect threats which will induce fear in everyone, going by your analysis the components of your 'ap' experience?
now, the fallen angels are fallen coz they stopped being angels so they were thrown out, the essence of it. right?
god is not a fallen angel right? he is the creator. the lover. the forgiver. the giver. the omnipotent. the one who keeps to his word. the one mightier than the fallen angels. the one mightier than everything he has created. the one above and over everything we can ever imagined or acknowledge as everything we know or acknowledge the oresense of is just a tiny element of that which is still unknown to us, as we discover with science every moment. all has to be created by god or something or nothing. he keeps record of good and evil, each moment of it, by everyone who participates in life, he will punish n reward accordingly, he will protect those who will not participate in fallen angelsacivities. he doesnt need the charecteristics and is not chaecterised by fallen angels. all this isfrom what you have said youself. right?
it can be confusing ng to seperatethe two, especially when us beings are capable of creating or creating the illusion of almost St anything and everything. take some weird movies for examples, if it can be created on screen the illusion deception can be created for real too. can make it all whole lot confusing, especially when you are already scared and confused coz of the scary experiences,which are the fallen angels action, going by what you say. but keep the fear aside, temporarily, if need be and it might be easier to get out of the confusion, chaos and deception f what is what and who is who, heal ouself, so that you can convey your message of what you consider dangerous, in your rights, without it being disregarded due to hatred of the fear or fear of the fear that the messenger brings himself.
maybe, maybe, your experiences of the 'ap' will stop haunting you if you see and accept god for its true self. without giving him or projecting upon him, the characteristics of the fallen angel, who works by inducing fear etc. the only reason I say this is if you were to fear god too, then you have no where to turn to do you. the rest is just his creation right? let your god be pure. don't give him the characteristics of the fallen angel you mention, not even one, otherwise the fallen angels will receive you to be him, coz you are calling out for their charecteristics.
this post is not for argument. there is no argument,cannot be about your experience of something. this post is just for you to see if it can help you navigate to a safe place away from this scary experience. truth is the light. perhaps, this is the truth, but it's for you to decide. no one else can decide or experience the healing for you, you have to find your way yourself. I am sorry if its taking time to get rid of the fear, even in what you see as your safe place, but you will eventually get there, only if you want to though. just like you haven't been able to convince anyone else.
love.
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