Alcohol to numb

Originally Posted by Loving_Soul

Big hugs darling friend - you are doing awesomely well and YES we are learning balance in everything we do including our "habits" lol xo

Thanks Angel xx

Originally Posted by Enigmatic

You are thinking a little absolutely, BL.

I'm speaking from both experience + knowledge. If you aren't an alcoholic than what I'm saying doesn't apply. If you are than its 100%. You either can't maintain "moderation" or you can. And if you can than that moderation isn't a very fun experience.

Originally Posted by BeautifulLife

A true alcoholic when faced with moderate drinking either can't do it or can do it but at a GREAT struggle. When I say great I dont' mean like having to take the stairs because the elevator was out. Well not unless you're in a WHEEL CHAIR or it was 1500 flights of stairs. I' mean STRUGGLE where you feel like you are actually making a sacrifice OR rewarding yourself for resisting the behavor. When you say to yourself in your head "good job you did it" that says it all.

Yeah I hear what you are saying.

Originally Posted by BeautifulLife

I'm speaking from both experience + knowledge. If you aren't an alcoholic than what I'm saying doesn't apply. If you are than its 100%. You either can't maintain "moderation" or you can. And if you can than that moderation isn't a very fun experience.

Yes I agree with this as well, and I should know very quickly which category I fit into.

Originally Posted by Enigmatic

Yes I agree with this as well, and I should know very quickly which category I fit into.

I don't know about quickly but yes you'll know. The question is if you'll be willing to admit the truth to yourself or will your ego still being listing excuses or rationalizations. Once again not diagnosising, just chatting.

Originally Posted by BeautifulLife

I don't know about quickly but yes you'll know. The question is if you'll be willing to admit the truth to yourself or will your ego still being listing excuses or rationalizations. Once again not diagnosising, just chatting.

I'm not sure as it's something for the future, however the fact that I'm posting publicly, openly and honestly about my journey on here, should be a great security blanket for keeping my ego in check.

It's when I stop posting about it, that I should be worried I think.

Originally Posted by Enigmatic

I'm not sure as it's something for the future, however the fact that I'm posting publicly, openly and honestly about my journey on here, should be a great security blanket for keeping my ego in check.

It's when I stop posting about it, that I should be worried I think.

very true. and the reason you orginally posted :0

[DARKEST_HOUR]

Being a recovering alcoholic I can tell you that the way things are going for you right now they are more than likely to escalade without you even Being aware of it. I started drinking at early age and through the years it began more and more of a problem for me. I've lost a lot of things, throughout the years and eventually my disease landed me in prison. You'd think that would be a enough for a person to quit but as an alcoholic one always finds a way, or better yet an excuse to relapse. Now I wasn't your typical alcoholic who drank heavily on the weekends only, my desease took me to another level of addiction. One where I would have to have a pint of booze to start of my day. And that was just to function and to take care of my tremors and shakes. I've even had many visits to the ER because of major withdrawals that would have which sometimes caused hallucination. It wasn't till the doctor did a biopsy of my liver and told me I have "alcoholic liver disease" (which is borderline cirrhosis) Is what led to my sobriety. Hearing those words at the age of 25 was a wake up call. I take it day by day and been sober nearly a year, its tough with this whole sc/TF thing going on in the background, but in the end I always remind myself if it's really worth going through it all over again. I know if I start drinking I'll either end up dead or in prison. So becareful, if you think you're a moderate drinker(like i used to think)and can handle it then good for you. As for me, that is not even an option cause I know what that one drink would lead to. From my experience.

Originally Posted by DARKEST_HOUR

Being a recovering alcoholic I can tell you that the way things are going for you right now they are more than likely to escalade without you even Being aware of it. I started drinking at early age and through the years it began more and more of a problem for me. I've lost a lot of things, throughout the years and eventually my disease landed me in prison. You'd think that would be a enough for a person to quit but as an alcoholic one always finds a way, or better yet an excuse to relapse. Now I wasn't your typical alcoholic who drank heavily on the weekends only, my desease took me to another level of addiction. One where I would have to have a pint of booze to start of my day. And that was just to function and to take care of my tremors and shakes. I've even had many visits to the ER because of major withdrawals that would have which sometimes caused hallucination. It wasn't till the doctor did a biopsy of my liver and told me I have "alcoholic liver disease" (which is borderline cirrhosis) Is what led to my sobriety. Hearing those words at the age of 25 was a wake up call. I take it day by day and been sober nearly a year, its tough with this whole sc/TF thing going on in the background, but in the end I always remind myself if it's really worth going through it all over again. I know if I start drinking I'll either end up dead or in prison. So becareful, if you think you're a moderate drinker(like i used to think)and can handle it then good for you. As for me, that is not even an option cause I know what that one drink would lead to. From my experience.

Thank you for sharing and congrats on your sobriety!

[DARKEST_HOUR]

Originally Posted by BeautifulLife

Thank you for sharing and congrats on your sobriety!

Thanks BL....