horse totem scares me ... plus orange dragonflies

[kindheart]

Hi there,
The horse has come into my life this summer, I believe he is a totem animal or animal guide, or something. But it doesn't bring me comfort, unlike other animals. I feel stressed every time I see one because it seems something bad always happens soon after. It seemed to have left for a little while, but it definitely is back and I still don't know what his purpose or message is. I'd like a clear cut sign, but don't receive them...

My medication also gives me really weird dreams, and I dreamed I wanted the winter carnival coffee from starbucks, but they didn't have any, so she gave me a coffee either called lullaby or dragonfly, I can't remember (in French, dragonfly is libellule, which reminds me of lullaby, and is why I'm not sure which of the two words it was lol). And the coffee was bright orange. Not sure if it meant anything, or if it was just another of my weird dreams...