EMERGENCY uncontrolleble telepathy, psychich attack, psychosis?

Ok i've been awakening since december/january because of a TF.. I've had anxiety most of the time since february.. two month ago there was an incident which led me to get totally lost about myself, thinking horrible thoughts about myself i've never considered about myself before.. this is sometimes still affecting me thinking about this. I've had some telepathy with a TF, which then led to being telepathic with all kinds of people, including people i dont even know, i noticed that i in some way got people i came in contact with start "waking up".. telepathy, empathy and so on.. anyone and everyone! becoming telepathic with them without my intention, picking up on their thoughts, moving exact same ways and projecting thoughts on them.. found it hard sitting at a dinner table cause as soon as i thought about someone at the table we started moving the same and so on. how ever to the problem: The telepathy has gotten uncontrolled; the TF hears EVERY single word as im writing for example, and me projecting thoughts to everyone (im invading them without wanting to!). Since two months ive been suffering from som form of OCD, i send out disgusting, horryfying images, words, meanings .. on autopilot! as soon as i think of someone i do this automaticly. Plus really bad things i did as a kid, which is NOT so fun, i cant even forgive myself for those things, feel unworthy (theyve been suppressed) and now im sending everything around, i cant think straight anymore. I also cant focus, everytime i think something theres ALWAYS a voice saying something aginst it, most ofen bad things, but even good things - just the opposite of everything i say. I cant trust where any of the thoghts are coming from and i cant trust if i hear something from TF cause it might as well be some form of imagination or psycich attack..many of the times i know theyre not from him. so therefore, i dont dare to trust any of it that comes into my head <snip>. I get no rest, i cant even cry without horrible thoughts coming from myself(?) or connecting to someone, especially people who are least as awake as me. I try to imagine positive future events, which just turns into deamonlike faces (myself mostly, but also others), i cant meditate, since i get no rest from these thoughts and connections. Theres always something commenting on what im saying in my head, and always pictures popping up (some i dont even know where they come from, and some i wonder if im creating), and in completely wrong situations!!! Ive tried shielding, and so on, nothing seems to work. I've also noticed people picking up on my thoughts who just walk outside my window, and any person.. i look at them, they mostly notice me from out of nowhere the same time, and then i project an awful thought on them. I dont know wheter the answers in my head are created by imagination (psychosis, or if its something else, or both).. but i cant take this its driving me crazy, i wont leave my house, i dont have any money, people are thinking horrible things about me which leads me to think bad about myself, i can tell you i refuse to live if thoughts about myself would turn out to be true (as i said, completely lost myself, who am i? i dont know anymore, before this i was very secure & selfconfident, everything fell apart).. i dont even know how you can think these things about yourself when you never thought about yourself like that before, NEVER.. how can you become doubtful about yourself to the most extreme? so far its just gotten worse and i DO NOT want telepathy with anyone anymore. I just want to be by myself. How do i stop this?? theres got to be some way its really too much, i need the telepathy off so i can focus on myself. Ive been wanting to see a psychiatrist to sort out my past and this OCD or whatever it is.. but thats going to be a weird hard experience as well. plus theres some kind of twin flame sexual energy, when ever i focus on that part on my body it starts happening stuff, for him too, and with the ocd(?), i do this all the time in the wrong situations.. and everyone near by kan feel this down there when im near by..... i know it sounds crazy but its true. i've noticed some form of patterning; as soon as a feeling is assosiated with lets say a word, its attatched to that word. both in emotionally, mentally and down there.. a picture and so on.. very quick.. even though you dont feel that way about whatever it is.. Plus everyones feelings are hopping around from person to person, and they're all negative feelings. I dont remember the feeling of happiness or love, which is really scary. My feelings are very "numbed down" since two weeks, no anxiety.. im more in a state of just a straight line, with toned down negative feelings..his feelings i do feel constantly and i feel others feeling while in contact. also VERY scary cause i've always been very sensitive. PLUS im some sort of portal; everyone kan feel both TF's and my own feelings through me.
the telepathy is the hardest part i need this to stop NOW. I try not to be afraid. please please help what is going on

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