Why people fear being alone so much?

[Starman]

Sometimes complaining is a way of bragging about what we have endured, but it is not my intention to brag. I was totally blind for about 5-years and I lived alone. I knew my one bedroom apartment very well, and even though I was blind I would cook and clean for myself.

My friends at that time did not know how to relate to me; they would say things like “you should have seen that movie,” and then they would apologize. I had no family around me and at that time I was not married but I did have a girlfriend who did not live with me but she was wonderful.

Having been blind taught me how to be highly independent. I used to walk the streets with a cane, and I was evicted from my apartment because I had no income waiting for government assistance, and could not pay my rent. I was homeless and blind living on the streets for a period of time until I got government assistance.

It taught me how to survive on my own, and yes it was very hard but it built character. I did not see myself as disabled and yes I could have gotten mugged or killed at any time. To have no eyesight and be totally alone can bring on great fear or great courage. This has been part of my journey; fortunately I found courage.