Did my spirit guide give me a message?

[Langustifolia]

I'm not sure where to put this thread so hope this section is okay.

A little back story...

Four years ago, myself and my children had to move house for the 6th time in 9 years. It really got to me and I said, 'Enough is enough. I going to change my life so we can have a stable home and no longer be in a minimum wage paid job.' Literally days later, a booklet for a local college dropped through my letterbox, I went through it, booked myself onto a taster course doing something that interested me, and then progressed onwards and have spent the last four years studying as a full-time student.

Throughout the last four years, myself and my children have gone through so much:
- One of my sisters became really depressed and attempted to take her own life six times.
- I had to have tests for esophageal cancer, thankfully it wasn't.
- I started having severe problems with my balance and endured months of tests and being told I could have a brain tumour. It ended up being a rare form of migraine that still affects me although not as severely anymore.
- I had to stop working due to my balance problems which created money problems.
- My daughter had a car accident.
- I started helping an old lady with her shopping during the pandemic but when she developed dementia, I ended up caring for her as she had no family which caused me no end of stress.
- My cousin died.
- We were given notice by our landlord that he was selling the property and we had to find somewhere else to live. We spent six months trying to find a home.
- My son had swelling of the lining around the heart and was rushed to hospital.
- We became homeless, the council wouldn't help us and we ended up staying in the home of my abusive ex as we had nowhere else to go. We were there for 18 months.
- My youngest daughter's mental health really suffered and she became depressed.
- My other daughter, who has PTSD, developed OCD because of the stress of homelessness and who we were living with.
- My nephew was killed in a traffic accident.
- My sister was diagnosed with skin cancer.
- I had a serious accident and had to have surgery and months of recovery.
- We moved house, finally into a home of our own albeit another rental, a couple of weeks after my accident. The home is far from perfect but it's a home.
- My daughter's OCD became severe due to my accident and her life is now dominated by it 24/7.
- My son was told that the swelling of his heart has caused permanent damage and he now has mild heart failure.
- The final year of my uni course has had to be put on hold because of my accident.


Last night I had a dream that felt more like a visit from my spirit guide or an angel. In the dream, I was sitting in a large arena with all of my peers from college on my left. A very tall man with white or grey hair approached me. I knew he was a psychic or similar. He put his hands firmly on my shoulders, looked me in the eyes, and said, "On Wednesday you'll be tested. Don't mess up or you'll have to do all of the lessons again."

And now I'm nervous! I thought everything myself and my family have been through over the last four years were tests, now I'm wondering if they were the lessons and the test is going to be even bigger/harder/worse than what we've already gone through.

I'm wondering if anyone has any insight into what this could mean?

I've been asking the universe for a better life, and learning to manifest over the last two years, and it's certainly working. I'm able to manifest pretty well now compared to two years ago when I had no faith in myself or the universe so I'm wondering if it's about that - having faith?

In all honesty, I'm scared stiff of what Wednesday could bring as I'm not sure myself or my children could handle much more let alone having to repeat all of the lessons again.

Any ideas what this could mean?