is it my astral body, astral eyes doing this?
all my life, very much so when younger, i would see things as if there was an extra filter, over this reality, i could for real see even what i am guessing were some sort of beings or spirits that had crossed over and were trying to touch me, a whole bunch of them. then it was as if i truly came to and did not see it like that no more. i remember i would wake to form the nightmare and think oh its just a nightmare to then still see them in this reality, but again the filter and me staring as i knew it could not be. then it was as if everything got normal again.
if i had a fever or nightmare, this is also true in adult life, the same thing; what happened in the "dream" would be this filter on top of my own reality, me looking. It would be this way if I too went in and out of the dream.
i once had this strange dream where this man (spirit? guardian? i still do not know) was in my dream trying to bother my child and when i tried to interfere he built chairs and so on on top of each other so i could not get in. meanwhile my child dream that this man (the way he would look was the way we both saw him) was trying to help her overcome a fear she had and he did but at the start the child was arguing with him. I can not explain this. it has not been the first time i have felt that someone else in the household is having a nightmare. one time i felt someone else was having one and in my own dream, i apparently stepped right into that ones. I can't explain that. apparently according to that someone i was dressed to the teeth what i was wearing in my own dream which seemed out of place. i had in the morning told my husband about this dream i had to then not say anything to that someone and that someone would by itself contact me to tell me of it. my husband did not know what to say. i swear it, we had not made that up. i too got brief memories from dreams where it is as if i am watching a child in it's own dream but aware of another presence i can't see. then later on the child will tell me it had this dream but never that the child saw me in it. can't explain that. i've just said that sounds like a wonderful dream you had, nothing else.
i learned from early on to be completely still and once i got to be a mom i learned to def not move in case a child would have sneaked up next to me fallen asleep. i wait til it passes, the filter.
during an emergent situation in hospital it felt as if i saw with not my own eyes as i knew they were shut but as if the body was a little bit up and i saw with these eyes. this began to happen after i had blacked out. this sort of condition was then going away but then later on i went in and out of a condition where i felt one with my body but when i looked i was somewhat confused (especially later on) if the people there, especially a lady, was there for real or not. I'm still not sure about that.
afterwards i have seen someone's dead parent as it turned out to be and it was when i was wide awake, not in bed, and it was the same filter on so then i knew too that this was not real. i did not know how this person's parent looked like at the time. i could see the details. similar thing had happened when i was a girl.
i have had my eyes checked and there is not something physically wrong with me nor mentally to get this. i have feared it is hallucinations or when younger imagination.
one of the strangest things i have seen with these different eyes in the middle of the night was a former resident, a young lad, who came right through my bedroom to go and get something, looking for something by a furniture that i knew we did not have in real life, but still it stood there and it was this filter on that one as well. i then thought i was dreaming this and the same as above, before i snapped out of it. i did not know how the young lad looked like but years later would meet the family, and him, and it was him i had seen. i can't explain this. i know people left in a haste, he was one of them, before, and it took years before they were honest to tell us paranormal activities had been going on there. it would happen a few times that i would see him wake me up by him walking to that furniture that wasn't there, but maybe i was woken up in the dream? then i woke up for real. And i was like not again, please.
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