still do not like things, am effected, even if I have remembered

I have never liked desks and it has showed to me that in my past life I was married, then divorced, to a guy who I would see behind his desk. I think the desk symbolized to me a strong power I would fail against. We had our problems but we loved each other from what I could tell but I had to leave as I had in my youth let him decide things for me to the point that I don't think I knew who I was. He was use to calling the shots. It all comes down to the view of the desk. Visiting him there at his office, and his desk in our home too.
It is not like it is a strong phobia of mine but I by instinct do not like desks.

I thought by remembering what could have caused it is what will then make it go away? but for me it gets stronger. Same with belt (another story, another man).

I wonder how do I get pass these things and I bet even much tougher things people had to endure in past life (where my complaining about a desk and belt is something to be ashamed of...)?

each time i for example am to go into a boss office and the desk being placed a certain way in the room it is as if i go back to being who i was in my past life, and i don't want that. I don't want to feel this way. We can't have a productive talk. Outside - fine.

please let me know how it works for you and how to get rid of these things :)