Been volatile lately..

[lostsoul13]

As the title suggests I’ve been volatile lately- police and being arrested- kicked out of my apartment- living in a hostel—-

For the past year- 9 times I went to hospital through 2019-2021

Arrested over trying to steal a car- broke the windows-
Changed my neighbours locks and moved in - police were called-

Some numerous other things :

I been on Depo injections for the last year since my last hospital admission: and I moved straight to the hostel from the hospital- it’s heavily staffed—- but I lost my apartment- due to changing neighbours locks!!? Lol not my proudest moment…

A string of other offences but only got cautioned…

I got out of prison 7 years ago - for money laundering …

I’m just feeling settled but I’ve missed my children and twin flame a lot and its** I am / have been making impulsive choices…

I’m in a better place now- medicine is helping- had lots of support from social workers and care management teams- but now I’m threatened with possibilities of having my money handled my another person due to shopping and apparently bad budgeting? Or decisions??

I want to keep my independent and it would only be a short time- as it won’t stand up in court as my mental health has improved since living in hostel/ I spend a couple grand a month- mostly on collectibles- clothes, figurines, sneakers, jewellery, technology:

I just had a review but last year I received a big payout and I blew most of it- if I don’t replace it- they will take over my estate—- I have 2 months left until I replace it and keep it for savings… hopefully they won’t find out by then I would of replaced it..

But the mental health team have sectioned me a few times - and I believe they don’t know what they are doing??! It always seems like I’m in the ghetto—-

I really want them off my back!!

I thought about moving away and starting again, running away from them—- but I have been volatile!!

My twin flame & children are in suspended animation- and my avarta is blocking them from manifesting— I’ve been alone for 22 years.. and I have managed to get into trouble a lot!!

I’m a changed man now- calmer and less impulsive- I think I was offending while manic from all the stress of everything…

I’m leased stressed since being in hostel- I’m probably going to get new apartment in 2-4 years… it will be nice to get away from all the user** service user Agreements ect and them watching me—-

I hate the service- but that’s just because I feel I’m being treated unfairly- and negligence…