Some efficient alchemy or (white) magic book?
Or anywhere on the internet to learn, anything works! I don't intend to ruin anyone's life, but rather put a halt to an evil community from the internet. It's been more than a decade of SERIOUS harm, not only for my friends or me, but many others who have lost their will over time and left, for reasons I can't yet demonstrate to a large group until I get a good enough plan or alternative. One thing for sure, I'm quite tired of relying on mind hacking when I could be better productive than this.
A possible obstacle might be that I'm quite logic-minded; I've also managed to do some animation and VFX, but music simply feels impossible. That's one possible limitation, not sure if forever.
I just have nothing to lose by trying.