i don't like talking about specific benefits to things because that just becomes shiny objects to have everyone chasing round and about and I don't wish to do that to people.... but it seemed to me that the coronavirus thing was highly beneficial for people in general.
all i will say on that is, you've seen the thing about the 'borg' in star trek? I think things get that way sometimes even though we don't call them that, because we absolutely adore each other and want more of each other. But that I think is a double-edged sword; the way things seem to work the more I get of others the less I have for my own true self. But it is like a drug addiction, I can't accept taking it in moderation.... I always want more more more.... and spend lifetimes trying to get that... so then sometimes things like the coronavirus come and bring me a dose of the reality that I don't really want, that I can't ALWAYS have more more more! I think the fall of civilizations is along the same lines.... the weight gets too heavy to sustain so it collapses in on itself.
Anyway then I am upset about the perceived loss and want to go back to what I had so much I never stop to realize the gain this has given in terms of getting a little bit more autonomy for myself. But I don't WANT autonomy I want to be in a big room with a lot of other people... and I can't udnerstand why it is I can't have things I want? So I am very upset. Personally though once I got tired of demanding that I have what I want despite the fact it isn't always given and accepted I would have to have less, not more, I started to see, exactly how much I lose with this drug addiction I am part of... in some ways, now, I am very grateful that god chose not to make me get so lost in everyone else's realities that I couldn't have anything for myself... it is a little edgy, because it is a little lonely... but I'm not looking forward to the time I have to go back.
again im not going to say specifics of what I've seen myself, because it really doesn't do anyone any good if I say hey here is a shiny object go grab at it.. Not that it really matters I suppose, the best shiny objects look so dull and boring people wont want them anyway lol... Anyway my own experience is, I need to rest more than I need to chase around after shiny objects 'just because' and I'm going to give others a chance to do the same. But I will say, if you are looking at something people tell you, it is probably in some way a lie. Just like I'm telling you, here, that I think that contrary to popular opinion the coronavirus thing was of benefit to us.
To me, there is a much more appealing reality (to me) hidden in all the awful clouds that people have put up to describe what they think reality is like. And it isn't a matter of fighting all the evil one sees to make something better exist; more a matter of stopping to accept that something better already exists despite the evil one sees
And that is the rub when I want more of others, I also want more of believing what they believe, and doing what they do, so I never get to get down and understand anything beyond what the ongoing thought patterns say about life. In particular I never get to the point of understanding what I personally think about life. Much less ever discover any part of how it might actually be better than it seems because of what everyone else is saying about it...
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