I keep having the most terrible dreams about my boyfriend. I can't even describe how disapointing they are. I wake up so many times with my chest wrenching and my heart feeling like its been crushed.
In my dream he's always betraying my trust somehow. And his exgirlfriend has been a recurring theme as well. Also I'll often be crying so hard I can't speak.
I'll go to sleep really happy but wake up still stuck in some horrible nightmare.
I will admit I have my trust issues because I've caught my boyfriend in lies before. Lying about stupid stuff he should have just been honest about. It feels like my dreams are trying to tell me something but the symbolism is too intense and hurtful for me to get anything out of it.
When I was laying in bed one night asking my guides to give me an answer in my dreams. I asked, "Am I dreaming these things because of my own insecurities or is it that I'm being told something?" That night I had a dream that we were having our engagement party and.. Ugh I can't even get into it! It just makes me so uncomfortable because I feel like I'm back there in that moment and its just so horrible! I want these dreams to stop but I also want to understand them.
Help
Comments/advice?