Help me learn to trust?

Originally Posted by Madhuri

I also feel like I’m being tested for the way I used to talk about the importance of forgiveness, how everyone is doing the best they can, and how, if this is true, we shouldn’t wish punishment on anyone. I still believe that when I can really think about it, but then I get angry and it all goes out the window, and I’m like, “yes, I’d like to order one plague of locusts, please?” I don’t mean it, and it’s not helpful, and I’m joking about it now, but at the time I’m serious and that’s an ugly thing to see in myself. I just feel like my old ways of seeing the world are failing me and I don’t know what to replace it with.

I can relate to this a bit. I have gone through forgiving everything as far as I could.
Eventually a limit was reached for me when I noticed that the person I forgave and was
continuing to forgive actually saw it as weakness in some way and kept actually prodding me for
response, as if testing to see if I really wanted to get along (for years). Knowing I am a sensitive
person. Not caring.

So I forgive this person now on condition that I don't see or interact with them again.
I did my best, to my limit. The last conversation I had with them and their last bit of nastiness, I
was calm with the feeling inside that this will be the last conversation.
When a person does not want to believe that life can be better (their choice, but wants to
drag others down) then that is my limit. I have to stay away for my own sake.

[thecatsmeow]

Originally Posted by Madhuri

Short version - I recently learned that someone I love very much is being abused in ways I didn’t know could be possible. I’ve seen a side of human cruelty that I couldn’t have imagined existed, my efforts to help seem to make things worse, and certain details about this situation mean there doesn’t seem to be anywhere to turn for help.

You could take a leaf out of Neville Goddards book and imagine the person you're concerned about to be happy and fulfilled. Manifestation of your imagination often works where nothing else will.