Wow, this is a trip down memory lane lol. I kept seeing this thread pop up in my feed lately and I kept wondering "why did I subscribe to a thread about indigos?" haha not realizing that I started the thread.
This is pretty cool cuz I never look back on any of my old threads and I have a newer perspective on all this.
So over the course of 8 months I discovered that the "superiority/inferiority complex" (not my words but I'll take them) I was suffering was the result of being raised a religious person. I've been told ever since I was a baby that Jesus was watching my every move and would punish me if I was bad. He sees you when you're sleeping. He knows when you're awake. He knows when you've been bad or good, so be good or Jesus is sending you straight to hell to burn for eternity.
Life caused a lot of problems to come my way and as a result I took a long break from church and it was then that I discovered that it had given me an inferiority problem. I've been told all my life that God only loves the righteous and everyone is a sinner and you must beg for forgiveness otherwise he hates you. Talk about a loving god.
Looking back, I can see how Law of Attraction brought me the resulting life I lived. I was vibrating unworthiness and negativity and I attracted those types of situations in my life. Every job I worked I always managed to be stuck with people with superiority issues that told me how dumb I was and how I couldn't never do the job right (like them). I responded the only way (low vibrationally) I knew how by telling
them that
they were the stupid ones and I would demonstrate it by blowing past their production numbers and doing it in half the time with half the effort. That was only a fleeting victory.
I didn't realize that I was looking at what -was-, which was the past. It was a product of my thinking habits, which was a product of my upbringing. And the more I looked at that and reacted to that, the more I was going to get that.
The first step on my journey was to completely cut off the church and old "friends" that fed negativity into my life. You can keep those people around, but you'll be fighting an uphill battle. I had no desire to do that.
The second step was to do what was advised by many on this thread: to develop self love. I was too consumed about what others thought of me that I didn't care about what
I thought of me. This step was incredibly hard but was made easier by purging my environment of the negativity.
The last step I learned is closely related to the second one. I came to appreciate how attraction works and how we attract things in our lives by our thoughts and emotions, which create our vibration that goes out to the world and brings things to us that vibrate at a similar level. This step took a long time to figure out too but I made breakthroughs in being able to control my thoughts and emotional states to the point where I can quickly observe myself thinking or feeling something negative and cancel it out and decide to think/feel otherwise. That was an impossibility when I first started out.
I can't say that I've got James Bond confidence, but my state now in comparison to when I started this thread is a night-and-day difference. I've taken more control of my life and feel pretty good overall.
As far as the indigo thing goes, I'd say the biggest trait I have of it is my rebelliousness. I don't just accept what's given to me, I question it and dissect it and seek to improve upon it or tear it down and restart a more efficient way. Perhaps that's a innate indigo trait in my blood, or maybe it's a happy consequence of being screwed over by a religion of love. Either way, I'm finding more constructive and creative ways to exercise this trait other than fighting against people and against life.
It really is a blessing to have a drive that forces you out of the status-quo box that society has built and into realms unknown. It has to be backed by loving intention and high vibration though.
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