Hello everybody,
here is my introduction on this forum. First of all, I am not a native English /speaker. So well bare with me, well auhm
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I am female, I live in europe and I am 31 years old.
Early this year I visited a chakra/energy healer and since then my development; personal as well as spiritual took a leap.
While I am getting more aware, I also find that I have a lot of questions about these developments, about things that happen. Questions that the people around me cannot always help me with. That's why I came to this forum to learn and grow, and to meet others on the path. Learning about our shared awareness and oneness and strenghten it, whilst trying to bring a little bit of fun,love and positivity into the world.
I always had a deep sense of connectness with nature, growing up on the countryside and hearing its spirit in the form of the wind. I talked with animals, small and big. I was always fascinated by the stars, but also about minerals and the origin and evolution of the earth and space:how via a grain of sand/moar or a stone i could travel millions of years back in time, feeling time as an instant.
I often felt 'homesick' growing up, detached from my family,my brothers and sisters, as if i was not their family (i love them,I have a great bond with my family and i had a warm and creative,open upbringing). I looked like them, but inside i felt different. I remember I often visualized a portal, through which i could step. I always thought that if the portal would appear I would go through it without any hesitation, even if I knew I couldnt return and never see my family again.
As i was getting older I could still see things, flashes; images before my eyes, people,intricate dreams with people visiting me, telling me things or for instance saying goodbye. sometimes i just know things, and say them before thinking about it. I could hear animals talking to me in my mind(especially when they are sick/dying). In my twenties I was still very shy, I had social anxiety and I was also diagnozed with adhd/***.
Life with its lifelessons went on and it took me a long time to start realizing who i really am, trusting and accepting myself and getting more aware.
these are some things that are currently happening:
automatic writing in a strange language (still dont know which language, or if its even an language)/ seeing vivid colors spiraling,images (bird) and hear things during meditation/ feeling vibrations on the back of my head (right side)/vivid/strange/beautiful dreams/ bordering astral projection/Obe.
My inner voice becomes stronger and sometimes i hear it very clearly/ making art that seems like it is coordinated from deeper within/Seeing orangegold colorcircles around birds/ attract total strangers that tell me their complete lifestory/having dreams and memories of unknown places and people/etc.
Sometimes it is so much that i dont know how to handle,how to procede,where to start,what to do with the information. it gets a bit overwhelming and then i need to retreat myself to recharge.
I am now looking for a way to channel all these things, how to find balance as i am starting to become more aware of this journey.
I think i can learn a lot of all of you; your different point of view, knowledge and experience, provide insight and so forth and vica versa off course..
I am looking forward to 'meeting' you through this forum.
thank you and yours sincerely,
Deety
Anywhere the wind blows
Hey Deity.
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