Confused, Occasionally Recurring Dream

[Happy Wanderer]

I was a Registered Nurse for most of my career and although I really loved my work I used to suffer a lot of stress and have nightmares about difficult situations in the hospital. I retired early because the stress was starting to affect me quite badly.

Funny, though I've been retired for 12 years now, that I am still having the occasional nightmare about chaotic and life-threatening situations at work. I had one last night, which perhaps may have been triggered by the fact that I have a family friend who is gravely ill with C-19.

I cannot imagine what it must be like for hospital staff working at the 'front' with patients dangerously ill with the virus at the moment. I keep feeling I ought to go back as a volunteer and help where I can. In my dream last night there were lots of volunteers, but they were putting the clean laundry away in 'unusual places', and when we were trying to find theatre wear there were no gowns to be found anywhere. Lots of other strange things going on, too.

I have been very lucky during the pandemic, that I have felt calm and contented in my solitude, yet I wonder whether I am more like a swan: gracefully and smooth on the surface but paddling like a mad thing under the water!

[Deeprem]

Interesting post..I suspect the dream concerns your fear of physical death. While you think you should volunteer..the dream says volunteers may put things in unusual places. Perhaps not familiar with current nursing systems. However I feel that no protective gowns to be had is saying..that there is no protection against death of the body. The body being the outer garment of the soul..Having found peace and contentment is in itself a huge achievement. The mind likes to create confusion to keep itself in business.. enjoy

[Happy Wanderer]

Thanks for your thoughts Deeprem, and a different perspective. I am surprised though, at the mention of my fear of physical death. I don't actually fear death but one thing was worrying me about dying was that my dog would be left homeless!

I have since talked to my family about this and my daughter was surprised it was something worrying me, as she said if anything happened to me, she would certainly take on my dog, no question.

Re: volunteering, yes, I would probably worry about modern protocols. However, I will admit quite openly that I was never a very confident person throughout my career and tended to go home after a shift worrying about whether I'd covered everything as efficiently as possible.

[Deeprem]

Thanks for the feedback.. and the dreamer is the best interpreter of their own dreams.
At least you got the dog worry sorted..

[Happy Wanderer]

Thanks Deeprem.

[8fold]

Your dream is telling you to face,process and overcome your stress triggers,

and to stop living in a state of avoidance.

[8fold]

Originally Posted by Happy Wanderer

but one thing was worrying me about dying was that my dog would be left homeless!

Funnily enough,after going through some unusual health symptoms in the last few weeks,my only thoughts were,who was going to look after my dog,if i were to cark it.

[Happy Wanderer]

Originally Posted by 8fold

Funnily enough,after going through some unusual health symptoms in the last few weeks,my only thoughts were,who was going to look after my dog,if i were to cark it.

Well that worry sorted itself out anyway. I was talking to my daughter about my fears and she immediately said she would take on Echo, my dog, as the kids considered her one of the family already. Phew, what a relief!

Tomorrow I get my first dose of the vaccine so I shall start to feel a little safer after a couple of weeks, when the immunity kicks in. Not that I ever take my life and good health for granted - any other number of things could happen to a septuagenarian!