Bad Things Happen when I try to know my future

[Green.Heals]

Sometimes I watch tarot readers, ....okay, often in this past year I have watched the energies on youtube, when I was pulled to a certain deck, and it's always bang on, which is totally creepy.

I guess it was fun for source to mess with my mind this past October when I over watched the energies, they were giving me all sorts of mixed reads. Premonition reads mainly, which have come real. & the ones that I missed out on, the path changed to those reads, crazy, right?

Once I stopped for the most part watching the reads, than my soul started to speak to me anyways, she nudged at me and such, to go a certain way, or what have you. I know I was to trust in her this year, and I really couldn't. My divine counter part was, and he's been blessed indefinitely. It's so weird.


Sometimes, I'd use the energies as ways to confirm what had just happened, because I was having really crazy experiences with a spirit guide that was visiting me.

& at first it was sort of I guess, fun, and a comfort, but than it got out of hand, and I was allowing them to influence me, and my decisions, and or rather, I would get super depressed. Which did not help as I was on a spiritual time line.

When source wants me to watch something, they send it to me, whether or not I am subscribed to a channel such as with a read, or not.

Even in this last month, I have barely even watched any reads, but everything happened as they said, and for the most part I lost out, on a ton. Like a whole life's path, and with people.

I used to use tarot myself, I would just ask questions, and pull maybe one card. Than I stopped, and that was a few years ago, but I definitely got addicted this year.

I just would like to say, be careful.

Try to just let life play out on it's own. Plus, it's not healthy watching someone else's life, and forgetting to take care of your own.

[Native spirit]

I have heard of people going crazy because they would' nt do anything without first reading the cards.
If they interpreted them to be good.
they were good all day.and vice versa


Namaste

[Green.Heals]

Yes, I got in my own way, and I lost time when I didn't have the time to lose.

I reacted on things that I did not even know were true, or I reacted to them with old ways, such as something good was to happen, and I would self sabotage it. Or I'd fear it would never come into fruition so I'd sabotage.

I lost out on so much this year. The other was guided by his own intuition, and I would have been to. But there are also things still that I would not have known quite had I not watched, so I should have tried to use balance.

Even now. Just stay calm. Breath. Keep going. Work within and whatever happens try to let it happen. but even than....I got seized up on someone when I had this feeling that this might be the person for me that spirit spoke on. but still, my lesson was because I have not healed some things yet, that it still blocks my ability to feel deserving of accepting it.