Rerun of & Reliving a terrible year
Hello all, Thank you for accepting me on the forum.
I hope to soon share some positive posts, but Iím here today with quite a negative post and trying to find some answers or advice.
In my own mind, I think thereís something in my stars that has caused this.
People do have bad years and similar years to the past etc.. but Iím going through an actual replay of one of my worst years I could possibly imagine. Itís not just coincidental, itís the actual same events! The same occurrences and feelings.
Itís long, so please forgive me.
Greetings from the year 2016!
Okay, itís 2022, but hereís my problem, Iím actually re-living the year 2016!
Itís a bit more than just thinking about the past, itís actually being there, tasting, smelling, feeling and absolutely everything repeating itself again!
Believe me Iím trying so hard to break out of it, to find a difference, smash a cycle but something that happened back then comes back and kicks my backside!
Of course everyone gets a ďDeja VuĒ sensation but this is like being in a parallel world running side by side with the past!
Even yesterday, I exaggerate not, I said it would rain in the evening! 8pm, it was raining! Right on cue! Just as it did on Saturday August 20th 2016!
Weíre even on the same calendar as 2016!
Am I mad? Iíd be comforted if I actually was!
Hereís the story about why it is 2016 again!
At the end of last year, I had a feeling that this year 2022 was going to be difficult! I usually always have a customary glimmer of optimism & hope at the start of a new year, this time I had a very bad feeling! Thus far, Iíve not been wrong!
This year has been dreadful from the first second, and actually 2016 was very good for the first 2 months but I think this year has rectified that and then carried on throughout!
March 2016 my Mother died and there wasnít much grief and mourning, my mother was a good person but a severe alcoholic and severe mental health issues, she was neglectful & in fairness was not fit to be a mother. Of course I was very sad, but not overwhelmingly.
Anyway, throughout 2016, I suffered luck which I believe and still believe was down to a curse!
I did not make a penny all year! Everything I tried failed spectacularly! My business failed, deals I won, fell through even when supposedly completed. I had 2 cars, I lost them both! My weight ballooned and I lost it all. My physical health was dreadful, blacking out, collapsing and constant headaches! I survived by selling all my possessions and what savings my wife had! Our bed even collapsed!
The luck was absolutely horrendous and there was a constant horrible energy around, a really bad feeling!
Itís now 2022!
The similarities are frightening!
Iíve done around 4-5 business deals, all have fallen through! Even the small ones, not happened!
In 2016, I did a deal and signed contracts, had witness signatures etc.. all was finalized for the next week!
The Sunday, I fell down the stairs and almost broke my arm. The following day at around 11am. I was told the deal was off!
This year, deal done, all signed. Sunday, I fall down the stairs, almost break my arm. 11:11 am the next day. The deal is off!
2016, ballooned in weight, ended the year losing almost 5st.
2022, ballooned over 20st, so far Iíve lost 3.
2016, health was bad, headaches 24/7, blackouts and collapsing.
2022, headaches constantly, eyes in agony, eye sight not as good, leaking brain fluid! (I had leaks in 2016)
2016, my bed collapsed, I wake up in agony with my back.
2022, the bed has collapsed! Iím hobbling holding my back in pain!
There are so many repeat events, social engagements in the same dates, car issues, unexpected bills: all exactly how I had in 2016n
The bad luck continued all of 2016, I was followed by an evil energy that seemed to revel in my misfortune! No doubt a curse!
2022, I feel no different!
Sad, desperate, surrounded by people but desperately alone!
2022 is the same calendar year as 2016, I must ask, is there some sort of curse over this particular year? Is it the same bad star or something.
This is unbearable! Can anyone at all shed any light as to why this is happening to me?
I donít just think about the past, Iím feeling it and living it! All the same emotions, the fear I had, the shock and helplessness! Itís all back!
Any suggestions or advice, I thank you.