Applying law of attraction to reveal God.

[Ewwerrin]

I have to give up trying to look for God where God isn't. (boredom)
And instead look for God where God is. (contentment)
God is everywhere. (neutral)
Why does there seem to be things that are void of God or less than God? (neutral)
I don't know what to call this neutral emotion. It feels like wonder. On one hand it is a question and lack of knowledge, on the other hand it is also a realisation of itself being its own answer and the wonderfulness of the answer. (wonder)
Neutral sounds negative. Dead... I like the word wonder better. Guess I've found a new emotion of curiosity. Or maybe I have found absolutely nothing and I am just confused. Atleast it's something different than regular reality. (pessimism)
Doesn't change my reality tho. (boredom)
Atleast I am free from even trying to change reality. (contentment)
Reality changes itself to all that I want, all the time. (hopefulness)
I can just let it do so, more of the time. (optimism)

My thoughts certainly don't seem to be changing for the better... (pessimism)
I guess I have to feel my way through. (boredom)
To something that feels good. (contentment)
It feels good for no reason whatsoever. I think the reason does not even matter. (hopefulness)
Everytime I feel hope, I contradict myself again... (frustration/irritation/impatience)
Sometimes I feel like I need to die in order to be happy. (pessimism)
And if I did, it woulden't change anything. (boredom)
It woulden't change the ever change. (contentment)
I can just let it be ok. Any and all of it. I cannot... (frustration/irritation/impatience)
I have to let be ok what is ok. I have to find what is ok. (f/i/i)
Ok, I have to stop trying. (contentment)
But ofcourse, meditate to have no thought. Then feel my way to what feels good. (contentment)

I am just here to exist it seems. (pessimism)
Who cares... (boredom)
I can just allow. (contentment)
Meditation without falling asleep! (hopefulness)
Lucid Awareness of nothing! (hopefulness)
Awareness of the subtle non-physical amplified! (hopefulness)
Lucid awakeful day dream! (hopefulness)
Awareness of nothingness. (contentment)