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[ThatMan]

Sometimes, when I meditate, I experience an emotional unlock, it literally feels like the emotional doors are open, wide open and I become very emotional, very sensitive, it feels like I am naked, no more mental images, just my own presence vibrating.

There's always one thing that hits me hard when this happens, the passing of my grandma, she died almost a decade ago, but when this emotional unlock happens, it's like she just died, just a few moments ago, suddenly I realize she is not here anymore. If I stop meditating when this happens, right away this emotional wave goes away and it's like nothing ever happened, I am back to my usual self.

I said maybe this is trauma coming to surface, that at that time I did not let myself mourn her properly but it keeps happening, again and again and again, same experience.

Is there anyone here who has experienced or experiences this emotional unlock?

[Unseeking Seeker]

No images but we may hear a soundless click, a tumbler in a hidden lock falls, space itself flickers …

[ThatMan]

Originally Posted by Unseeking Seeker

No images but we may hear a soundless click, a tumbler in a hidden lock falls, space itself flickers …

Beautifully said... I actually have a big smile on my face reading your words, you know it so so so intimately!!!

It's just incredible how perfectly you described this...

[ThatMan]

Some time ago I noticed there are cycles in my meditation, and they repeat, from a few days to a few weeks one cycle, then another and so on.

For example there's the cycle of blanking out, it does not matter when I meditate or where, for a week or two I keep losing consciousness when I meditate, every single time I meditate, not sure what happens, I just lose consciousness, this even happened in the mid daylight while I was outside, meditating in the lotus pose ( a first time experience to lose consciousness while meditating outside ), it can go for a a few brief seconds, minutes or even hours when I meditate in my room.

Regarding this cycle of meditation, what I've learned is that I literally leave the body, when it happens for a few brief seconds, I can catch glimpses of what happens, that's how I figured this out. I've been already a week in this cycle and it has never been so intense.

Now, what I noticed is that these cycles complete faster than it used to and they are more intense, it feels like I am going to reach a pinnacle point where I am not sure what awaits me.

Blanking out, intense experiences, noisy mind, deep peace, blanking out, intense experiences, noisy mind, deep peace, these are the cycles, and they are not a product of daily life, I've been noticing this for months now.

Has anyone notice these cycles or similar cycles?