Thank you. Losing your "twin" is hands down the hardest thing you can to go through. The "soul shock" is very hard. But, that's life.
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Other days, I want her nowhere near me because I suddenly feel betrayed. I know to trust those feelings because I can feel her guilt. She's very sexually active (she claims for business) where as I'm very sexually abstinent and embarrassingly loyal, purposefully waiting. Which further proves my point of the dynamic. It's a rollercoaster of a mirror. Sorry, rambling. :P
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Hahaha, no problem. It reminds me of the good old days when my TF was still here actually :) The huge emotional rollercoaster these relationships can be, the chasing and the running, oh man. So many memories. ;)
I was like you. Very loyal. He was the runner and went from short fling to short fling for the remaining years he was alive.
I don't know if it will help you, but what he says now about this is that they were small affairs of no importance in the end. They sometimes try to "move on" in the arms of others only to find that they can't. It was torture for him. Not that I'm wishing this to your tf, I'm just saying that no matter who she dates or sleeps with... she won't forget you. I don't think they can.
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I'm happy to hear that he's still around and with you in many ways even after passing. :)
Alleviates my anxieties of losing mine, that's for sure. I wouldn't trade her for anyone else. Just wish she truly felt the same and embraced me. :(
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She will feel the same in time. ;)
Oh yes he's still around. Actually he's more around now than he was back then. The 5D really changes a lot of things (although you still miss the 3D version of them very much ;))
Good luck with your girl. Let her be. Work on yourself and your self-love till then, that's very attractive to a twin lol. She'll come back when she's ready.