Can someone help cut a karmc tie? (I'm in trouble)
So I don't wish to post this where it could go because it is not the point of this.
I am in a rare karmic twinflame situationship. My soul came here for a life's mission. A HUGE part of that mission was to heal. I haven't been able to. I was REALLY close THREE times this past year. That has ended, and I am given wishes, of which I try to continue to use to heal, to no avail. & as every day passes bad things are happening, like it was stated to. The wishes also don't stay as long. At first they'd last 2 weeks, to make the shift, now is it a day maybe two, mostly less.
People don't understand much more than this here, so I've not been coming on, but I NEED HELP PLEASE.
My phone cuts in and out, no one can hear me on my phone. I tried to get some files organized to apply for a grant tonight, and NOTHING would go right. Even when I'd fix the problem with a solution, I am not being allowed to. I have to be PERFECT now, and I don't know if this is because my Twin is better and better ... he healed last July 2021. He awakened last Oct 2021.
He came back and back and back, and through wishes, and I word vomit as I am not healed, nor disciplined. Yep, it's sad, but this is not the problem.
I am not being paid at jobs. My truck keeps having problems. I can't get full time. The part time I DO get isn't enough to make ends meet, it came up in my feed that as of March 17 2023, if you have mental illness, you can receive assisted euthansia, which I have thought about.
A few days ago, they told me end of the path, and final and endgame, which I've dealt with before, but I know this is the last last ends. & because the shifts don't last...the ones I was supposed to make. & I don't know whats going to happen. Like I am not a bad person. I have aspergers and adhd and borderline I know I was told by spirit better things to come, this karmic path was supposed to end and I was supposed to have way better things. but even in the last 3 years, I never had things like this go bad. Ive had very very good things.
My twin inherited hundreds of millions of dollars after he healed last Summer.
The other 3 times that I was almost healed, they let me be not perfect...but now, I am chastized for over thinking, not controlling my subconscious, having negative thoughts, projecting or speaking on negative thoughts.
I learned that there is no God, but Beings that control us by our soul, to of course upgrade ect ect I was given 3 years, and I failed continuously.
I need help PLEASE.