seperated from the love of my life like my soulmate please help

[Sparkle78]

hi all, im female, 42 and I live in London, UK. im a psychic very spiritual person. I don't have any other psychic people to talk to at the moment. I have mental illness and no job still now. I can't see my friends and my brother for about 3 years now. I don't want to see my dad anymore anyway. im on my own in my life with no job still. I had a boyfriend before for about 3 years before. he broke up with me before and we are just friends after that now. he is called joe. i'm in love with him and he is the only man ive loved in my life so far. he is the man of my dreams. joe is like my soulmate. ive known joe 12 years now. now joe has moved and I don't have his address anymore. now he has changed his phone and I don't have his new phone number. I haven't seen joe for about 3 years now Ive been talking to him on the phone. I don't know why I don't see him and my other friends and my brother for. I can't see all the people in my life. all of a sudden after talking to joe on the phone for years he has changed his phone and I don't have his phone number now. im in love with joe ive known him 12 years now I keep thinking about him and joe is like my soulmate. all I want to do I is talk to joe and all I want is joe to text me again. I can't bear this. this hurts I think id be heartbroken at the moment. this is tearing me apart. all I want joe to do is text me so I can talk to him on the phone again. I was hoping all this time id see joe again. I did the tarot cards and it don't look good about it. what do you do if you are separated from your soulmate and I can't talk to him on the phone now? I don't know why he is not talking to me for? I thought id never let joe go now. I am worried if joe goes I will never meet another man I love again. I don't know what to do now? I can't cope if joe won't text me on the phone now. if joe don't text me soon I don't know what im going to do? I want to ask joe to come and live with me now if he don't talk to me anymore I can't. joe is the only man ive loved in my life so far the man of my dreams. I don't know how joe can do this really? ive known him for 12 years and he always texts me on the phone before. I feel like the devil is separating me from the people in my life. please help any advice or suggestions please. peace and love sparkle78