I need help with something personal going and looking for spiritual answers.

[jgross4573]

That is just how I write things. I do understand that I can be a little sensitive to my environment only because I don't understand it and I don't understand the people around me.

I didn't ask those questions because I felt attacked. I asked those questions because I wanted to understand why I was being asked those questions. I understand why now. I am not going to be asking anymore questions unless I feel I need to.

No, people aren't reflecting something within myself. I don't believe that I lack self-love. I truly believe in my heart that I love myself more than anyone else does. I don't feel any negativity towards myself. I just don't understand my surroundings because I am Autistic.

I already got it checked out. I am not on the spectrum as I was diagnosed as having Autism.

I never thought once that anyone's responses on here were attacks. I wasn't talking about any of you on this site. I was talking about my experiences with people over time. I understand that everyone here is being helpful. Thank you everyone for your responses.

I just think people don't get what I am asking and I am not asking the wrong questions. I know what I want and I feel like I am being misunderstood.

Yes, that is true I prefer to ignore the people around me and I am focus on myself most of the time and not other people. I understand that now that they can perceive that in my demeanor. I will take what you said into consideration and I will check the channel out.

I think so. I think there is a little bit of that going on. I am not sure exactly. I think that I pick up on other people's pain and I absorb it. I don't know what to do with it and I feel like I carry extra baggage. Sometimes I carry too much and then I get emotional. Sometimes I feel like I have to feed off of it just to survive.

In result, I turn inward and then I shutdown and the sometimes life can be unbearable just because I carry that extra baggage.