Hi Sweetie!

[FallingLeaves]

it seems in vogue
to try to 'vibrate'
the correct way
to attract prosperity

or at least to pray
for prosperity

people say such things
just assuming
everyone should want one

but none will ever
address the question
of why I should?

why is it so important
to go to all that effort
just to attract wealth?

because honestly
I'm happy the way I am
why should I be greddy
and want more?

[FallingLeaves]

so
he felt a 'tug'
from someone
he recently met.

Just wishes
it could actually mean something
other than that he is going to get kicked
for a change...

[FallingLeaves]

they'd been
reminding him
of
'the girl who could do no wrong'
recently

wonders idly
how she is doing?

[FallingLeaves]

he must have been
a really awful person
in other lifetimes

he means
if it is true
and you only get back
what you put out

the way people treat him
speaks volumes
about the way
he must have behaved

(shudders)

[FallingLeaves]

he can't remember
if he said this
before

once
he was wandering around
looking for a home...

and the homeless cast him out.

pretty sad when the people at the rock bottom of the world
put you below even them...

[FallingLeaves]

he decided
he's not
reaching out
to females
again

and they can't reach out to him

just another excuse to be alone.

[FallingLeaves]

apparently
the girl
who tugged his heart
was someone
he said no to in another life

so

he can just expect
her
to turn it around on him now
just like everyone else does.

He was right
this life was never worth anything
-----------------------------------------------


he thought he had to do this oblique communication
thing
like
he had no choice
if he wanted anything at all

but it has always hurt

because

it always leaves the door open
for the other person to randomly reject him
so he's always on edge
because his experience is
no matter what they say about their intentions
that is exactly what they will do.

but
apparently
he does have a choice:
just do without

it is looking like a good choice
now

sigh.