Hi Sweetie!

[FallingLeaves]

well
you haven't been
openly mean
to me
for a long time

forgot what it was like
sigh.

[FallingLeaves]

oh another one of those
lol

well he wasn't sure
he should like her
now he knows the answer to that...

not that she really
thought anything
of a him
to begin with
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he really doesn't want
any of them

they all want
things he doesn't want to give
any more

so he guesses
he gets to be alone.

[FallingLeaves]

he knows
how stupid
he seems
right now

he just got tired
of pretending
that he is someone
who is always in control
of himself

so he just said what he wanted

now
he is glad

it is like a little touch
of the childhood
he never really got
lol

[FallingLeaves]

going noticed is desirable
but
usually has a high price.

like usually, my life.

so i want it but i don't want it.
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when you've lived in a city for a while
you get used to it
and kinda know your way around

but whether people actually live in
the cities
they talk of
is anyone's guess

he's been lied to a lot

so he's learned not to care about that.

he just talks about what he knows
about what others are saying

and just assumes they are real

but he probably ought to know better
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he knew at the beginning
it wasn't getting any better

sigh

[FallingLeaves]

maybe
he should take
all their expectations
that he
is a mean, cruel person
as a sign
that that is what they want him to be?
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at least he is having fun pouting though...

[FallingLeaves]

yeah pick a fight with me
then blame me for it
when i' moved to defend myself
and make me feel awful
I'm stupid
I always forgive
lol

[FallingLeaves]

well
it seems like
sometimes
when all seems lost
the best thing to do
is just admit you don't know what to do
then do whatever it is
you just wanna do

damn the torpedoes
and full speed ahead
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he has thought
sometimes
trying to figure out
who others are
is a bad idea

if they figure out
what you are doing
it puts them
in a tizzy

and meanwhile
it always
puts you
in a tizzy

so he has thought
maybe he ought to abstain
but hasn't taken it
completely seriously

maybe now
is the time
to take it
completely seriously

sigh.

[FallingLeaves]

my meditation
is going
very well
these days

it is kidna different
doing things
even though
you feel like
you don't really want to
lol

[FallingLeaves]

well
he's gonna go with his gut

if it feels like
he would be
just randomly
chasing around after someone

*simply by*
talking to them

he isn't going to talk to them.
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he's got a bad taste in his mouth
lately

and he thinks
if they really
wanna feed him
a 'foe'
to 'fight with'

well that never goes well
and he thinks
if that is going to be
the way it is

then he has just wasted
another lifetime
and for what?

So he might as well
just
stop now.

[FallingLeaves]

well he figures
if
they are going to call him a nag

that is the perfect time
to keep his own thoughts
to himself...