how can 2 strangers have shared images, knowings?
this is about 2 people that never met.its an ex of mine that some time after the break up slowly built up a friendship, not active on my part, but i cam to see him as a friend or brother. the romantic set of feelings had died out somewhere after the break up.
at the time i was not willing to share or look for answers when ever i would have an experience of something spiritual or strange happening. like i would still feel connected to him. for a period of time i had no contact with him but knew and felt that he had began to earn more money and what that did to him and i did not like it and then i saw him and knew i was right, someone else who we both knew met him and had a talk with him and sure enough i was right.
i would try to blame my experiences on my mind being so used to him and that our break up came so sudden just when i thought we were in a pleasant, harmony period in our relationship. i did not see it coming. i thought what ever struggle we had had in the past with his drinking was over and done with and that we had won. i did not even want to think about that. when we did struggle with it i kept it hidden for a long time because i wanted to protect him and did not want him angry or his family angry with me.
from what i have been told he felt more connected to me than me him after the break up. he felt more. he knew more. he had other words than i would chose to explain the connection.
there was a brief period few years after our break up when we began seeing each other in a romantic way again, on my initiative as I suddenly kissed him when he came to see me and was just talking to me, as a friend. i was not really myself during this period and it wasnt his fault, it was all mine. it was tough. I had to tell him i saw him as 2 different men. One who I had been inlove with, had a romantic set of feelings towards and that guy had died to me some time after the break up. And instead he had become over time this friend or brother. that I was sorry I had kissed him but was afraid I had been kissing the memory of him, of us. he would tell me "You'll be fine" (I had explained to him I was not doing well, mentally), he said to him I was one and the same, that he had always loved me. it was a really sad conversation to have. he asked me to give it more time and I tried but soon found out I couldn't. I could not use him like that. he said it was OK if we went back into being just friends (no intimacy) and if, when I wanted to change that into something romantic to just say so. at that point I rather felt I would have wanted him proud and angry and tell me to get the hell away from him. but he didn't. I didn't think it was a good idea we go back to being friends either. I knew he was a good man and I knew something was wrong with me and that I needed to get myself sorten out and not be in a relationship at the time. over time i got back to normal.
we had plenty of opportunities after that to reconnect in a romantic way but we never did, we knew the same people too. I just never felt that romantic vibe again with him but i still liked him.he would ask me. i did not want to say it again, but we both knew it.
during our long term romantic relationship i think he was more open spiritually than i ever gave him credit for. i do think i watched him have a vision once. that time i was pregnant. we did not know the gender. he was not the father to be. he would tell us (me and someone else we both knew, we had met by random, he was with her, not romantically though, they went way back) that everything would be fine (I think he caught that i was a little nervous about giving birth and just hoping i would be a good mum), what gender the baby would have, what the child would look like (his descriptions was unlike everyone elses guess, including my own).
I can't help but think - was this the time they connected? because it is he and the child that over time has proved to me, the child that is, to have the same images/visions and knowings as he had - and I can't for the life of me figuring out how that is even possible. They were 2 strangers. They never met. He overheard her once as she was making typical baby sounds while I was in a telephone conversation with him, last time I think we talked.
I think I have forgotten more than half the stuff the child has said over time that is in correlation to him. The child has never seen a photograph of him and has never been told of who he was earlier in my life. I just wish I knew what is going on.
The child has surprised me and the daddy with detailed stories of things happening before the child was born and other things. we never knew what to do with that. we have not made it into a big thing. I always figure as the child grows it will be less open.
if i should take one example of all the crazy stuff - the child has draw things just the way the ex would when we were a couple. But there are lots and lots of more things.
Last edited by asearcher : 18-09-2021 at 04:38 AM.
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