Talking about thoughts

[ThatMan]

Last night I had some very interesting experiences.

I found myself talking with my cousin from the near by city, where he was born, now he lives in another country but this is how things appeared to be.

He looked at me, we were face to face at some distance one from another. He said something like this:

In my right hand, to your left side, I have the thoughts of depression, anxiety, hopelessness, lack of self confidence, fear.
In my left hand, to your right side, I have the thoughts of self confidence, bravery, creativity, energy, positivity ( so much more but I can't remember ).

He looked at me and said: Choose one of them.

So I chose his right hand, the one from my left side, I did this because I felt that I am unworthy to pick the other one who had all that good stuff.

Instantly, I felt all those feelings and thoughts eating me alive, I felt down, low, alone, depressed, no self confidence, I felt with 0 energy, so so tired and apathetic. I became and empty shell, there was not even drop of hope in me.

He looked again at me and said: Thoughts come and go, you are the one who chooses to which one to listen to.

It totally made sense what he said, suddenly, I was not anymore my thoughts and my feelings and now I looked to his left hand, from my right side, and I picked that one.

I felt a rush of energy throughout my entire body, I felt as if I just drink the cleanest and fresh water that could ever be. I felt that I was given knowledge of higher things, knowledge of science, I felt the energy surging in my body.

Then he showed me a piece of paper, he said something like: This piece of paper shows how the cold affects my daughter. ( my cousin has a daughter in real life and she really has problems with her heart )

I could see details about every single organ from her body, I saw that her heart was 62% damaged, I saw that her brain was 12% damaged and the rest I can't remember.

Just right before waking up, I felt that I totally became this number: 888; I could see it, feel it, know it, be it. It was as big as the universe. While seeing it I said to myself, this must be the infinite.

[Rah nam]

888 - A point has been reached were divine integration can be reached

[ThatMan]

Originally Posted by Rah nam

888 - A point has been reached were divine integration can be reached

Well, that's for sure, I reached something that I never even ever thought.

[ThatMan]

Last night had another experience, this time I became 333 if I remember right.

I felt the same great power that I felt before.

[Rah nam]

Originally Posted by ThatMan

Last night had another experience, this time I became 333 if I remember right.

I felt the same great power that I felt before.

Divinity is mantling and guiding you

[pixiedust]

Originally Posted by Rah nam

Divinity is mantling and guiding you

Do you have a view on 44 / 55 ?

[Miss Hepburn]

Um, maybe we should have a talk about this ''unworthy' thing you got goin' on!!!
That had Neon lights around it for me!

[utopiandreamchild]

Originally Posted by Miss Hepburn

Um, maybe we should have a talk about this ''unworthy' thing you got goin' on!!!
That had Neon lights around it for me!

Truth... I agree. One should never think of themself as unworthy.

[ThatMan]

Originally Posted by Miss Hepburn

Um, maybe we should have a talk about this ''unworthy' thing you got goin' on!!!
That had Neon lights around it for me!

Had another experience this morning.

I found myself half awake, I was like floating in a sea of awareness, when suddenly, I heard a voice and saw many images. It was my mind.

It was talking and talking and talking and never ceasing to show me images of my life of imaginary versions of the future, telling me that I am not good enough that I still have to learn so much so that I can reach the Source. It was taking me in dreams, showing me instances where I was making the bad decision and then giving me the chance to make the right decision, saying that I need the knowledge of good and evil to move further.

My mind appeared like a shadow, like an entity that was a shadow of who I am. It kept on talking and showing me images, telling me why I need it, why I need my mind, that is essential for me to learn, that without it there's no learning, something like that.

It went full power, the darkest thoughts that ever crossed my mind appeared to me, the mind what saying, look, you are not good enough. Then seeing that this not working, it started talking about how I can die at any moment, how my family can die at any moment, now fear appeared and it was like a lion, ready to devour me. Then all sorts of crazy thoughts appeared, like I was not safe at all, that people are to kill me, and things like that.


I witnessed all of this, saying nothing, I turned back from the mind and let myself drift away in this sea of awareness, suddenly, the mind disappeared and a very deep peace came over me, this peace stayed with me and even now I experience it, many hours later.

My mind appeared like it was the devil, the accuser, accusing me of everything that I've done and even for the things I have not done yet because they are to happen in the future, ha ha ha ha. I was put face to face with all my inner darkness and I was accused because of its presence in me. The accusations were to make me see that I am not good enough to reach the Source, that I still have to learn a lot. This was not easy for my physical body, it felt like torture, while nothing could get to me, not even my mind.

My mind faded away, I am at peace, that kind of peace that comes from deep within. This remainds of Buddha and of Jesus, both were tempted in different ways.

[Miss Hepburn]

Originally Posted by ThatMan

*excerpt*...

My mind appeared like a shadow, like an entity that was a shadow of who I am.
It kept on talking and showing me images, telling me why I need it, why I need my mind,
that is essential for me to learn, that without it there's no learning, something like that.

It went full power, the darkest thoughts that ever crossed my mind appeared to me, the mind what saying, look, you are not good enough. ....that people are to kill me, and things like that.

I witnessed all of this, saying nothing, I turned back from the mind and let myself drift away in this sea of awareness,
suddenly, the mind disappeared and a very deep peace came over me, this peace stayed with me
and even now I experience it, many hours later.

My mind appeared like it was the devil, the accuser, accusing me of everything that I've done and even for the things I have not done yet because they are to happen in the future, ha ha ha ha. I was put face to face with all my inner darkness and I was accused because of its presence in me.
The accusations were to make me see that I am not good enough to reach the Source, that I still have to learn a lot.

My mind faded away, I am at peace, that kind of peace that comes from deep within.
This reminds of Buddha and of Jesus, both were tempted in different ways.

EXCELLENT!!

Be on the look out, like a Sentry at his post, for the mind's tricks.
...they seep back in because they're following habitual route's.

Now that you are more aware of them - the thoughts will weaken big time.
And that lion? It can only roar ---it has no teeth to devour anyone.
You are making new pathways in your physical brain to accept and more often go to this peace, btw...
ref: Dr. Caroline Leaf's research.

These negative pathways are like a rut in a dirt road that a wagon wheel just falls into...
you are creating new positive, strong pathways...esp, with consistency.
This is a fact. I don't make these things up, lol.