The other night, I woke up in the middle of the night after dreaming about, of all silly things, roller skating. I lay there and thought back to real life, how I was in college during the roller disco years, it was a fun, exuberant way to be physical. I smiled at the recollection, at how much time & energy got spent that way. Although it wasn't all holistic fun either, as substance issues were also a part of that scene in the late 1970's, a scene I would put behind me permanently in a year or two...
All of a sudden, as I'm laying there, I heard a deep inner male voice. I have NEVER heard a voice like this in my head before, although I have often received what i have interpreted as short messages and/or warnings, but those voices were smaller and more feminine, and usually from deceased family members.
This booming, authoritative voice asked me: "Did you learn to like yourself?" which startled the heck out of me! First to hear it at all, all philosophical in the dark of night, and second, because what a good question that was: although I was definitely insisting on being myself in the very square preppy surroundings of college, I can't say I totally liked myself either, because the activity itself and various substances involved represented an escape from realities that were making me miserable, as well as negative behaviors I had learned at home from a substance abusing mother.
Then it occurred to me: how did Mr. Voice know what I had dreamed about/was laying there thinking about, anyway? While our emotions color our aura and can be read (or so some thinking goes?) I was of the opinion that our thoughts were private? Or do Guides have access to our specific thoughts, too? In which case, I should clean mine up some
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