False Twin

[lth_enlightened]

Hi everyone,

I was active on here about 7 years ago, speaking of my twin flame. That is, my supposed twin flame. I wonder if anyone can identify with me, for I have dealt with the weirdest journey of my life in the past 7 years. See, I thought I met my TF; all the patterns fit. There was a spark, we had the same life plan, patterns of our lives matched, but something wasn't right. He had a gf, and I was unfortunately the "other girl," but in my heart, I knew I had to know him. Then, the time came for us to part ways, and I became a little persistent (which is a kind word). I messaged him again and again, and it seemed like he just resonated with me when we talked, but then we stopped for months on end before I instigated everything again. I know now that that would have been the wrong way to deal with things if he were actually my TF, but I was scared. After 3 years of pining for this guy, I met with a psychic in my hometown, and asked about this fellow. She told me that I would meet someone if I forgot about him. So, I asked my supposed TF if he ever thought about me as more than a friend (which I know is a juvenile question in the swing of things), and she told be that I would meet someone when I forgot about him. Three months later, I met this guy, and I noticed him first, but our first eye-meet was intense to be sure. He was actually glaring at me, which I now know was his thinking face. We have been together almost three years now with extreme ups and downs. There is so much to say about it that I won't write here now. I am actually not even sure if he is my TF. I have lost trust in my ability to discern, since I wholeheartedly believed the other guy was. I have been treating this as a normal relationship because I have kind of just adapted the strategy that if it is, it is, and I am not going to pry. My reason for writing on here today though, is that I was so dead sure that the previous guy was my TF that I stared at the wall for hours. But when he broke it off with me, I didn't care. When my current bf broke up with me, I took three days off of work and ran 10 miles to try and get over the pain (I have never run that far in my life). We got back together after 5 months because we "never left each others' minds." I'm sorry if this is mumble jumble, but like we look nothing alike, and we couldn't be more opposite. I guess I am just hoping someone reads this hodgepodge and finds something useful. I have answers if you have questions. Anyway, much love.