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Gratitude ~ free kicks on the poor widdle rich girl :)
I am working on healing a dysfunctional childhood, and have gotten a lot from Carol Look (she's on twitter & facebook) who emphasizes the importance of gratitude in shifting your own vibration.
If people could help point out to me ~~ gently ~~ the true advantages of my growing up without financial anxieties or harsh physical abuse, I would appreciate the help in expanding my point of view.
There was a lot of money around me growing up, but I was my mom's overeating partner by age 8, her drinking partner by 14, her drug partner by 18, that is, when she had time for me. So I started out life with a lot of addiction issues (cocaine equals mom and love? Uh no) and self-loathing. That unhealthy behavior has stopped now, just about...but I still have a lot of anger and sadness to shift.
For starters: at least she paid for an awesome education and I got out of college debt-free, right? That's a HUGE start on life, I should be grateful for that. And I wasn't physically or sexually abused, which is more than some women I've met can say :C
It's just very hard to love yourself, when nobody loved you growing up. It's like I don't know what that feels like if it's not white wine & a cigarette
.... also hard to hold my wound with compassion without taking it too seriously either!
thank you for giving my inner child some air time !
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