Help please.

Originally Posted by norseman

Oak, there really is no rush, especially at your age. You need to become more easy and relaxed in your spirituality, and learn more in a general sense.
Your goddess knows who she is and will tell you in her own good time. These long lists of gods and goddesses are aspects of the same things. There is one goddess who has more names than you can count. May I make a suggestion and that is to focus your attention on The Lady. She is the feminine energy behind Nature, the bestower of fertility and creativity who brings seeds to fruition. She is the Mother of all things and has been worshipped by mankind for hundreds of thousands of years. You, and all of us, are her children so what better as a goddess and so easy to honour. She is all around you in the world. She is Mother Nature or Gaia whichever you prefer.
By the way, The Lady is part of the Celtic pantheon.

Now you asked about the Celtic world http://www.pantheon.org

Norseman, what a beautiful , calming picture that evokes in my mind "The Lady"
Forest glades, lakes and streams, raising Her hands in blessing while Her cloak slip down Her arms. Very inspiring and a good reminder of Her beauty. Blessed be

Originally Posted by norseman

Oak, there really is no rush, especially at your age. You need to become more easy and relaxed in your spirituality, and learn more in a general sense.
Your goddess knows who she is and will tell you in her own good time. These long lists of gods and goddesses are aspects of the same things. There is one goddess who has more names than you can count. May I make a suggestion and that is to focus your attention on The Lady. She is the feminine energy behind Nature, the bestower of fertility and creativity who brings seeds to fruition. She is the Mother of all things and has been worshipped by mankind for hundreds of thousands of years. You, and all of us, are her children so what better as a goddess and so easy to honour. She is all around you in the world. She is Mother Nature or Gaia whichever you prefer.
By the way, The Lady is part of the Celtic pantheon.

Now you asked about the Celtic world http://www.pantheon.org

I agree with Norseman. When I started down this path seven years ago, I had it set in my mind the exact craft I would practice and which pantheon I would call on. All of that has changed, and now I realize that part of walking this path is the constant transformation we experience. I still do not have a patron god or goddess, though a couple have approached me (like Hecate, as I mentioned). Even if I do dedicate myself to one particular aspect of the Lord and/or Lady at some point, I know that as the years go by my needs will change and new teachers will come.

So spend your time studying the different ways of our practice and don't commit yourself to anything just yet. If something resonates deeply within you, pursue it and see where you end up. The Goddess has her ways.

Also - I love pantheon.org and use it often!