sinners and confessions

So I need a place to go besides church. Church is nice but my sins are personal. I need a thread to write about what I did. It seems bad enough of course I shouldn't have done it. Once again I let my temper get me into trouble. Personally I feel real bad about this. My ex boyfriend from 18yrs ago has repeatedly stalked harassed and lied about my husband to me anonymously. He has used spyware on me...he needs to let go already. The fake letters from women my husband is cheating with....the fake names the lies...I've had enough. His favorite sources....my family...ex friends and the internet are his weapons. I use to think he was desperate or being silly...lol...but the3 last time was the straw that broke the camels back. I happen to google the fake womans name which led me to a website where I had been denied access. On the front page....the fake name had been used by him as a user....it was his website....he's a computer engineer....the website had denied me access with the html code and his full name in the web address. I wanted to hurt him the way he has hurt me all these years but has gotten away with it. You can say I'm being immature but what he's done to me was unprovoked and evil in nature. He ws trying to bait me...and I went below my level of morals and dignity. I slandered him publically and I was full of anger to him. Besides what have I done to him this was the first time I did anything back while he tries to destroy my marriage and I let him. You see he knew personal things about me....pain especially of what I had been through. The hardest time of my life the chapter of it that I finally put closure on and he keeps ripping it open to pour salt in the wounds. Sometimes it was so cruel and viscious that I cried so hard that somebody could be so cruel and mean to me when I try to be a goodperson. What I did wrontg to him....nothing. how can u like somebody and be so cruel? That's a sickness he doesn't even know me anymore. I hadn't thought about him all these years but he can keep hurting me. One thing I learned...I need to get my anger which comes from hurt I'm sure of it go. I feel terrible about what I did but how am I suppose to deal with a stalker...a ghost...who won't go away. I've already apologised to him that things didn't work out. I didn't even owe him an apology but I thought it would help him. He keeps trying to entangle me into this drama with him...through cruelty and lies made up about my husband. I don't use public networking sites myspace or fb because he's already stirred up the pot on there....I've lost a few friends...they probably weren't my friends anyways over his lies and stalking. How come this shadow or ghost of a man won't go away....what have I done to deserve this?

I do not know that how would you treated by God after confession but let me tell you that you will have no burden on your conscience.

[psychoslice]

The only true sin is to deny your true SELF, if your not being your true SELF you are nothing but an illusion, all this ****, all this life story isn't who you are, its just a story.

To me this doesn't seem to be a spiritual issue but a practical one - this man is cyber-stalking you and there are legal measures you can take. You are right to get angry, but use your anger to defend yourself in positive and legal ways and consult a lawyer. Good luck!

Thanks everyone. I just have this hate in me now. I wake up and think about it and sometimes before bed. Id have tp post the whole story for you to understand but its something I don't ever want bring up again. I want to go forward and let go of this hate I am filled with because of him. I lost a child right after because of stress but he can just be soan evil ignorant piece of sh*t and you know what...I only dated the guy for two months. He's 32 yrs old now and is still doing these things and hasn't gotten over this since he was 19. The things he says....he remembers everything about me....he compares everyone to me...he has went after my childhood best friend to get back at me. But she has taken the bait and we are no longer friends now as she has turned on me.(she has always been the jealous type so maybe that was a good thing idk) I just wish I never knew him...its hard to get a lawyer when I'm going after a ghost who is taunting harassing and stalking. It won't happen again because nobody will be able to find me online and I have had to cut off contact with any mutual friends or acquaintances we had. That's one way to limit the stalking but I wouldn't be suprised if he found another way. I want him to leave proof directly leading back to him or else I'm not sure id have too much of a case.