Stomach Issues & the Solar Plexus

VikingWarriorOnWheels · #1 11-02-2015, 07:07 PM

All of my life, I've had stomach issues. From the age of about 4 to 18, I experienced bouts of nausea and vomiting that would go on for days at a time. I would develop these symptoms so intensely that every one of these flair-ups would result in a hospital stay. There was never a clear diagnosis made by any of the various doctors and specialists, only "possible abdominal migraines" after everything else was ruled out.

Looking back, I had a loving-yet-anxious childhood as my parents would often partake in screaming matches in my presence. I was also diagnosed with a genetic neuromuscular condition (similar to Muscular Dystrophy and ALS) at 14 months, so I have never walked or crawled and use a power wheelchair for mobility. Though my parents were FANTASTIC at treating me like a "typical" kid and I rarely felt "different" at all (I was intelligent and very sociable from a very young age, and I was always treated as an equal by my peers in school). It wasn't until I was old enough to "like boys" that my self-confidence started to erode. Even though I was okay to hang out with socially, no one wanted to date the girl in the wheelchair ;)

In college, I rarely considered dating as I thought it was pointless - never had anyone reciprocated my feelings nor had anyone been interested in me in any way other than as a friend. My senior year, I gave online dating a shot. It was also rough on my self-esteem, as I was often finding myself "catfished" (being strung along from afar, only to be ditched once something better came along). After about a year, I met my first boyfriend at the age of 24. It lasted for 6 weeks, until one day, he decided to cut all ties with no explanation... Needless to say, this was very hurtful. I met the love of my life a month later and I couldn't be happier with our relationship (we are now married, own a house in the country, and have a circus of fur-babies together).

Now that I'm 30 and work for a fantastic organization doing what I love, I'm discovering that I still hold onto those feelings of inferiority in work/social situations. My feelings of inadequacy are definitely holding me back from who I yearn to be all of the time: a confident, engaging social butterfly. I used to be this way as a child! Now (except around those whom I am comfortable with), I am shy, meek and awkward (at least I feel this way). I can't shake the icky feeling that I'm being stereotyped and/or looked down upon because of my physical inabilities and appearance. I know that the only way to change that is to show people that I am like everyone else, just weaker physically, but it seems to be easier said than done.

Over the past few months, I have been focusing on strengthening my solar plexus, as I believe this is where the issue lies. I carry citrine and tigers eye, meditate daily and am trying to push myself socially... My question is:

1. Could my stomach issues as a kid have anything to do with a blocked solar plexus? And could this be a result of being around my parents fighting?

2. How does one overcome this irrational feeling of inferiority?

vespa68 · #2 12-02-2015, 08:01 PM

Nice story! The solar plexus has to do with confidence in yourself. Citirine is a good stone for that but make sure you clean it regularly. You can also say some affirmations such as "i have confidence in myself and in others "as you place the crystal on yourself. You can also list your qualities down. And also try to catch your inner critic. I have these same issues. Between, I hear that peolple who have disabilties are very advanced souls.

VikingWarriorOnWheels · #3 12-02-2015, 08:10 PM

Thank you, vespa :) I recently received a reading where my SG indicated that I have a gift and am a healer :) I have been working on trying to develop my inner self and piece everything together. There's so much to learn! I will work with my citrine more.

vespa68 · #4 13-02-2015, 07:48 AM

Thats great. Im a healer too ☺!

skygazer · #5 13-02-2015, 02:03 PM

Hi Viking, congratulations on your achievements!

I've worked with Byran Katy's material, and it was very helpful in addressing some of the emotional issues you are concerned with, but these type of feelings have a way of reappearing of and on. I'm actually going to revisit Katy's exercises again.

Someone on the forum also suggested Greg Baer, to read, I have that on my list to do.

And it is always helpful to sit daily and do chakra meditation, to observe and contemplate the energy you are feeling.