New experience during meditation

[Arrawaka]

I had a strange experience during a meditation; I am drawn to a dark hole and suddenly I fall. Then I find myself surrounded by darkness and all I felt was that I was carrying evil, it was all so clear - I was set in the world to spread evil as if I possessed evil forces. I looked down and saw a hand in profile. It was as if someone pressed a fast forward button, everything went fast. At that moment, I was convinced that I could create pure and simple evil, black magic. Then everything became empty; I felt nothing. As if I was filled and in a vacuum.
Can anyone help me interpret this? I feel really lost and alone in this experience, I feel like i should explore it but l’m not sure how.
I have been meditating for many years and have never experienced anything like it, not even while doing shadow work.

[Guillaume]

You're not alone!

You've been too deep / you fell asleep, it happened to me once.
My guess is that it's 99% bull**** in there. But I don't know, some people seem to like it and spend a huge amount of time trying to make sense of it.

Welcome here btw!

[Arrawaka]

Thanks for your reply!
Acctually I wasn’t asleep, I was very much aware of myself and my surroundings all through the vision

[Miss Hepburn]

"What does it mean to do shadow work?"

Shadow work involves getting in touch with the parts of yourself that you've repressed — or what many might refer to as their "dark side." ... It's called "shadow work," and involves "diving into the unconscious material that shapes our thoughts, emotions, and behaviors,"...

Found online, I didn't now what it was.

[Guillaume]

Originally Posted by Arrawaka

Acctually I wasn’t asleep, I was very much aware of myself and my surroundings all through the vision

Sure yes, when I had that kind of experience, to me it was a bit like daydreaming.
But definitely I was too deep. In proper meditation, we should let go of thoughts, become still, concentrated, and visualizations should be treated just like thoughts.

What kind of meditation technique do you practice?
EDIT: actually the question I should ask is: did you really have the feeling that you needed to explore that?
Because for me when it happened, my feeling was "what the hell are you doing?" !!

[Unseeking Seeker]

@ Arrawaka … as of what you say, two things happened; one, you plunged into a dark void and two; you interpreted it as surrounded by evil.

Taking the void as valid experientially, it would then appear that within it, your imagination, your apprehension took it to be evil.

I would suggest that if we say that there is no such thing as evil, being but an entity whose head and heart is not aligned with love at that particular time (aren’t we too quite often?), our presence may remain equanimous in both void and manifestation, in an aspect of wonderment.

The void, like enigmatic space, seemingly attrituteless, holds secrets. An orientation of childlike innocence, trusting the currents may discover them, in timeless time.

There is nothing to fear, being a thought construct conjured by mind, from feeling of separateness. If our meditation is thought rested, judgment rested, anticipation rested, seeking rested, we simply flow like the breeze with ease, wafting the fragrance of God essence.

[Uma]

What I posted here about channelling applies to meditation also: https://www.spiritualforums.com/vb/s...&postcount=130