I most certainly will give you a hug
And perhaps even bring you a little peace of mind as well.
From my understanding of things, sometimes, we need to become the thing which we may not necessarily want to become, just to know for absolute sure, that we
do not really want to become that.
Please, I beg you, do not look at the bad things you had done in a past life, as a way of tormenting yourself in this life. Learn and heal from all the wounds this knowledge has brought. Search deep within your soul, and figure out if you were happy doing those kinds of things to other people. If the answer is no, then learn the lesson you chose to learn in
that lifetime. Do not let that lesson you chose, defeat you now. Find your inner strength, and say, "I
know what it is like to do evil things. But, that is
not who I am deep down inside."
Stand up and face the lesson you learned, and
know that you learned that lesson for a reason. Yes, you did those things. Yes, you now know, what it feels like to do such things. Now ask yourself, is
that the kind of person I want to be? If your answer is no, then use the knowledge you have gained, to turn that negative situation, into a positive result, now, in this lifetime.
Know deep inside your very core being, that you are not that bad person you once were, because you now
choose not to be. Let that lesson go, and find your inner peace over the situation.
The exact same lesson can be learned from your past lives where you were the victim. You
know, what it feels like to be a victim. Learn and heal from the experience.
Do you enjoy that feeling of helplessness? Have you learned that lesson well enough, to turn the negative situation into something positive, that will heal you with inner strength and inner peace, in this lifetime?
A lesson behind being a victim, is learning, that no matter what happens to you, due to circumstances or someone else's malice, is that it is still your
choice, to grow strong enough on the inside, to no longer cling to that sense of fear and hopelessness. It is still your
choice, whether to let it go and find that inner peace, or continue to experience that lesson over and over again, until you learn to let it go, and move on.
Life is not always going to be fair, but it is how you choose to learn from it, that helps us to heal, grow, and shape us into who we really want to be.
I hope this has helped