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Originally Posted by Cosmosis
I reach out and cry and pray to God 1-2 times per day for many months now as I am going through hell with anxiety and depression. I know He cannot fix my life situation. I pray for strength to get through this. I meditate on Jesus every nite. But I am losing hope. I receive no feelings or even the slightest divine response. I know I am supposed to be patient. But one can only take so much. I don't know what to do. Losing faith as well as hope.
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Sorry for your predicament.
The way you describe what you think and do, in my opinion, is counterproductive to your well-being because
your not-having clarity makes you miss divine signs that would be beneficial to you.
I paraphrase:
You pray but you know He can't fix it.
You pray for strength to get through. These are beliefs that shape your experience.
They are just your current beliefs, and you can put them aside, and
look inwards to God for guidance, without bias. Look and listen.
During such moments
put aside all your current beliefs and expectations, and be open to receive guidance. Write down everything that comes into your mind as it comes, with no interpretation, no reformulation.
The more you do it, the better and more fitting the guidance will be.
When you review the guidance,
always re-start form your original notes, and leave aside all the rationalizations and the emotions you added to them.
You have to be especially careful that
your "awake" emotions, thoughts, expectations don't distort the guidance you receive. In time you get better at it, but you should always remember that you could unintentionally distort.
To experience miracles you have to
believe that miracles are possible. Your beliefs and expectations shape your experience.
I suggest you
start it right now. Clear your mind, and tell yourself:
Please make me feel happy and confident now! One, two, three!
This will have the effect to attract into your life situations that will make you happy and confident. This is what you ultimately want, don't you? It doesn't matter how this happens, what that consists of.
It works!